February 6, 2012, Lafayette, Louisiana~
Howdy! Britnee Rowlett here. Sorry I haven't written in such a long time; just haven't really felt like it. Life has a way of getting fucked up when one least expects it ...
Life is a bit better now, but not much. If it were not for Michael and Ronee', I would have gone off the deep end long ago.
Ma was here last week with her partner, Christina. They are very serious in their relationship now and it makes me sick. I try to be accepting of Ma, but I just don't understand why she would dump my Dad like she did and go into a totally different lifestyle! That isn't at all like her; if you ask me, I think Ma has some rocks loose in that ditzy brain of hers!
I tried to get along with her, but I could tell that Ronee' was bothered by the fact that my ma is a lesbo, yet she managed to keep her mouth shut, which I greatly appreciated. I didn't need her preaching at me about how it is a sin. I am trying very hard not to run her faith down but I hate it when she looks at me like she is so disappointed in me!
I mean, it's not MY fault that my ma is the way she is!!
Ma and Christina have since gone back home; they left on Saturday. I hope they have a safe trip back to Jersey. As much as I dislike her partner, I don't want anything bad to happen to my ma; I love her, even though she does drive me crazy at times!
Dad is doing okay. He was in the hospital back in November: he had a heart attack. It wasn't a bad one, but he has had to change the way he eats and has to give up smoking and drinking. I know it will be very hard on him because he loved to drink and smoke. I saw him when I went back home for Christmas and it broke my heart: Dad is a shell of his former self: he's lost a ton of weight and he looks like a concentration camp survivor.
Dad says he's doing fine, but I feel that he may be hiding something that he doesn't want me (or Ma or even Christina) to know. He's always been something of a private man, especially since Ma left him for Christina and walked out of her life forever. The divorce really tore him up bad!
School is going okay, but I am ready to go to Oklahoma. I will be transferring to Oklahoma (Norman, the University of Oklahoma) to persue my dream career, which is meteorology and storm chasing. I will be doing that in the fall of this year; I can't wait! The University of Louisiana-Lafayette is a good school, but I would rather be around "MY kind": the storm chasing crowd or the storm spotters or the weather nerds!!
Ronee' is getting over a bad chest cold. She is about over the worst of it, but she has a nasty cough: she sounds like a honking Canada goose! She really sounds terrible! She went back to school this past Wednesday and has just about made up the classes she missed. She is busy poring over her books and doing some serious homework, so I won't be bothering her tonight!
Michael is cooking in the kitchen; he is making stir fry noodles with chicken and vegetables; it smells really good! Mike is an awesome cook! Ronee' cooks some too, but Michael is the cook in this dormatory!
Later on, I am going to meet some friends and go clubbing. I don't have school tomorrow, and I am off work too, so I can stay out and have me a little f un! I don't drink, but I do plan on dancing and trying to hook up with a guy; this not having a boyfriend really bites! I see Ronee' and Michael ogling each other like two lovesick puppies and I can't help but get a little jealous, especially since they're engaged and will be getting married later this year!
And with Valentine's Day coming up, it would not look good not having someone to date!!
Well, Michael just said that dinner is on the table, so I will get Ronee' and we'll both go and feed our faces. I will then get ready for my night out and have a good time with my friends! I can't wait!! I haven't really been out much since just after New Year's! I will write in here again soon; until later, this is Britnee Rowlett saying toodles!