Since this was written I have become a graduate (masters student)student at The California State University Los Angeles. I have accumulated 16 credits with a GPA of 1. Although I sense some support(not monetary as it appears the faculty have tenatively catagorized me as a good potential communist who isn't supposed to like money. I have been asked the question twice and each time re-affirmed my fondness of money but it does not appear to have registered)...sense some support, am intelligent, and am on academic probation for the last two terms with associated appeals that the department members, who would also not know my face well from the brief exposure(exposure is correct..from the smelly floor wax and stone polished lab tables of biology labs to the urine soaked corners and cold atmosphere of skid row to the old wooden floors, small class chairs with ink wells and pencil grooves remenicient of elementary school and social awarenesses akin to B'nai Brith sex parties)... would also not know my face well may as well "neutrally" dismiss me with respect to my records, little time I applied, if not with respect to my scientific habits of absolutes, theorums, proofs, if not with out immediate awareness, but knowledge of, a lack of real intellectual conceptions (in their dogma, enigma elucidations)...going all the way where their noses mate the books and readings. (Who's who in going all the way list..no one yet , but half of the females in the classes are better than average for even playboy-some for even miss America). With new mental revelations, a near unrelatable-to past, a whole philosophical society new to me, I had already arrived at on my own, I again have, if asked (i.e "speak") hardly have anything to say (i.e. "I hardly know what to say"). "Can't you just answer the questions and leave out your own ideas"-I cannot as if I had anything not philosophical to say or comment on. A dog will only bark and tell you nothing.