PTS is not an easy thing to deal with, I know I have it but I still can't bring myself to speak of most of my past. There are gaps I have trouble trying to force myself to remember. Writing helps me release outer layers of emotion and anger that block the way to digging deeper into my mind. It's my past that drives me, wanting to forget it...believe that those things happened for a reason, if there is no reason behind that torment then this world is crueler then I ever could have imagined, and I'm not ready to face that kind of truth.
I want to understand and have power over my past so I can contour to grow from it. I have come an incredibly long way. From homeless to full time job making 1700 a fortnight and having nor one but two families close to me, no more lonely helpless feelings...most of the time. I started writing out of hate for my life, but I have been trying to find other muses for my talent. Soon I would like to self publish a book with my writing and art together.