I have an unusual personality, I guess. I'm quiet and both outspoken. I once had somebody tell me, "Although you are quiet, you have a lot to say". I can be insecure while at the same time having a lot of self-confidence. I'm overlooked, and yet alot of people are always in my business , trying to find out who I am and what I'm doing. My personality is affected by the people I'm around. I tend to be more quiet and stilted around people who drain me. I hate being in the spotlight, and yet there's a part of me that craves attention. Go figure on that.
I was chastized as a younger adult for being verbally sarcastic and sharp-tongued. So I tend to hide that side of my self. At times it's hard for me to talk because I'm afraid I'll say something stupid or hurt somebody's feelings. I'm not good at making small talk. Writing helps me to sort out my words. And when you write, there's more freedom to say what you want.
People have a tendency to treat quiet people like we are freaks. If you just want to sit there and be quiet, instead of walk around and blab, then there's something wrong with you. Like you have a mental problem or something.
There are two different kinds of people in the world I don't like. Mean people and nosy people. I can't stand nosy people! People who always want to try to get up in your business, find out if you're dating anybody, what you do everyday, and so on! The internet is full of mean,hateful people! I stay away from social forums.
But enough of that important stuff. My major influences writing as a kid were Judy Blume and R.L. Stine. But I'm influenced by every writer I read, and by everything I've read. Even boring stuff. I even find influence reading the back of shampoo bottles and stuff.
I got to the point where I hated writing. I hated writing for a number of years, up until recently. Now I'm starting to enjoy it again! Thanks to a project that I've been working on for about seven months. But I don't see myself being a famous writer nor do I want to be. I haven't tried to get published in about seven years, and to me, trying to get published is a waste of time and money.
I have some new stuff that I've written that I'm going to put on here later on.