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Scott dialogues with God about his life...
Scott, I saw your tears this morning. I have come to talk to you about your life…the life you designed for earth. I want to talk to you about your anger and the way life is turning out for you and others. Is that Okay with you? Yes, God…please do…I am ready to hear.
Great…let’s start with what I heard this morning in your meditation and your hearts prayers. Let me say that nothing that was said was offensive to me. I accept you all in your pain, grief, suffering and confusion and nothing…again I say nothing that you say is ever “off limits” to the divine. You cannot offend me with your words, thoughts or emotions because I made you this way and you should accept it as part of your divine-humanness.
Scott, I have said before you are both divine and human. You cannot and will not on this earth be one or the other…you must be a combination. This results in a lot of “stress” to the humanness of who you are on this earthly plane. There will be times when you will “feel” only human and wonder where the Spirit went. This is all part of the human experience each and every one of you will feel at times.
Scott, do you like your humanness? No, God I don’t. Why not? Because it hurts. I experience problems, temptations, sorrows and pain. So, why does that make you not want to enjoy your human nature? Because it doesn’t feel divine to me. Scott, you thought divine was over-rated when you were here with me. I did? Yes, you did. You of course, enjoyed your Spirit’s divinity, but you saw my plan for earth as very exciting…did you not? Well, I guess I did God or I wouldn’t be here I guess. I kind of kick myself for being so dumb though.
Scott, you were never “dumb” as you say. You just feel dumb now that you have come here and are facing the challenges you wanted in life all along. Yes, that is a dichotomy and an irony to me now God. I just started to taste of my divinity this last year and a half and now it seems to be all gone. Why do you think it is all gone? Well, I know in my heart I am experiencing a transition in my spirit…you would probably call it growth for my soul…but it hurts God…it really hurts. Please, my precious child explain to me your hurts.
God, in prayer and meditation I am not feeling the feelings that I had when I felt in meditation and prayer for the last year and a half. There was hardly a day go by where I did not feel your spirit, my guides and angels nearby…I had Spirit dreams and I had a new goal and vision…or so I thought. And what has changed my sweet child? My feelings. I don’t feel the strong connection with you that I had in prayer and meditation as before. Scott, this is a misconception of your humanness breaking forth. Well, God whatever you want to call it…it still hurts. What is it that hurts you my son?
I tasted of the feelings of your Spirit, your divinity and mine. I cried when I felt your presence and loved the feelings and the revelations that I was receiving…the divine connection you and I were enjoying…and now…they all seem to be “cut-off” and non-existent. And how does that make you feel? God, you don’t want me to repeat what I just thought here. I can take it. Thanks, as that is reassuring…I am not sure anyone reading this would appreciate it though.
Scott, I told you that there is nothing you can say to me in word or thought that can ever offend me. You were angry this morning at many things during your meditation time and you “let me have it” as you would say. Yes, God, I let it all “hang-out” today. My emotions were overwhelmed this morning. I was angry at life as it is presently showing up for me, I was angry at how stupid we humans are…and I marveled at how you could be pleased with such a bunch of messed up human beings…like myself.
Scott, don’t be surprised by your humanness…I am not. I knew and you did too that this human nature, and your human body, would have many limitations and hurdles to overcome. This was all part of the adventure that you divine- humans wanted to experience upon this sphere. Scott, here on earth you are able to feel everything…whether you judge it to be good or bad. It is all for divine reason. Just like the weather Scott, your experiences change daily and because you are only human…as most of you think…you experience human conditions that sometimes are not what you think was in the plan of your life.
Everything you are experiencing, even right now, at this very moment is in your plan of life. We had discussion about this before you were allowed to come here to earth. I know you don’t remember anything of our conference and of your wishes. But, Scott, you took on this earthly challenge with zest and joy and you were determined to make this life count…not only for you…but for others as well.
Scott, you affect everything…and so do the lives of everyone on this earth. Many have lost any hope in life and have checked-out while still in the body…you said you would not do this to yourself in this life-time. You have checked out before though Scott. I have? Yes, you have and so have most of you. You only see the divine vision before you get to earth…you see as an overview of what your soul wanted for you. You did not see the “fine” print as you would say…you saw the wholeness of what your soul wanted to experience. You said… “God, I am up for the challenge”…and you dove in…and came to the earthly sphere.
You found that life was difficult and hurtful. You found out also, there was the contrast of laughter and joy too…and even love. Yes, love is what you really wanted to experience here Scott. That is the epitome of Source and Spirit. There is no other higher calling as you would say. The calling to love…un-conditional love is the highest of all callings on earth. I am constantly beckoning to you to find this love. In your heart you have found it…in your humanness…often you do not find love.
But, you are all searching and looking for it so much. It seems to be so elusive for you in your humanness to find it though. The more you look and pray for love, the more you seem to be disappointed in your relationships and you give up on it. You say in your humanness, that this love is impossible to find, and once you do find it, all it does is give you pain, sorrow and remorse. You quickly forget about the contentment that this love gives you, the joy that it brings. It fills you at times and you feel ecstatic and overflowing with it. Then as quickly as you are filled with joy over love, your hopes are dashed and you wonder why you ever loved. Love seems to tear you apart because the more you love, the more it seems you are disappointed in love.
Even, with God you feel these same feelings Scott. They were expressed very clearly and demonstratively to me in your meditation. I heard your crying and I felt each one of your tear drops as you expressed your heart to me…without any censorship. I like that. Too many of you feel you cannot express those words to God because of your prior conditioning about God. God does not have fragile ears…he desires to hear every word that falls from your lips and heart as they thrill the heart of God. Why? Because you take off the mask of religiosity and you become “real.”
I like you Scott being “real.” I like you being “gut-honest” with God. I want to hear what you really think and feel like at every moment…even in moments of so-called darkness, pain and suffering. Not, because I am masochistic or mean…but because every experience that you feel as a sentient human being is important to me. I know your thoughts…all of them…even when you think it unimportant to me…everything about you is important to me…all the time. There is never an inconvenient moment for us…it is always welcome at all times and in all seasons of your life.
When you feel bad, or troubled, or hurt or in pain…it is all important to me. I care as no one else cares Scott. When all others give up on you, even yourself, I will never give up on you my child. I am stubbornly in love with you and all of your human family. Scott, find me in the struggle, find me in the pain, find me in your joy, and find me in the rain. Scott, there is nothing happening to you that is out of control. It is all for divine reason. Your Spirit knows, you humanness doesn’t. Accept the fact that all is for purpose and that there are no surprises in the divine. Nothing, again I say nothing is by accident as you have been taught.
When you transition again back to your Spirit’s nature you will again understand all was for divine reason. It is hidden from you for now…but will be revealed again to you. Don’t lose hope…keep on keeping on. You can do it. There is a whole host of divine Spirit that is awaiting your transition back to Spirit form. But, until then, make use of every experience that you have on this earth…make it count.
I love you…and I have said I will not ever leave you an orphan on this earth. Look all around you…there are divine signs and supports to aid you along the way. See life differently…see it as the adventure that you wanted. You can do it. Others have done it. Spirit is the overcoming factor…don’t forget this beloved.