edited: Thursday, May 01, 2008
By D. Scott Arant
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Posted: Thursday, May 01, 2008
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Scott ponders his thoughts during today's meditation and prayer.
“In my Father’s house are many mansions (rooms): if it were not so, I would have told you…” Jesus Christ
Today in my meditation and prayer time I had this “block” of idea stream into my mind. It was shortly after I prayed a prayer to God. My prayer was that God would keep me on a path that served my Higher Self, or my spirit. This is always a good prayer to pray, but I prayed this prayer out of a motivation of fear. I have a fear of being led astray or being deceived by anything “out of the ordinary.”
Of course, in my spiritual path of this last couple of years, it has been full of surprises. They have all been profitable for my spiritual growth and evolution of my soul…but quite out of the ordinary as others would perceive. There is this inward fear, I suppose because of pre-conditioned thoughts and beliefs that if I got too far out of the normal, whatever normal really is, that I could be deceived and led astray from my intention to be truly spiritual.
As I entered my meditative state by being relaxed, still, and calm, I started to get what I would call a “block of thought.” When Spirit talks to me, it seems to come in blocks rather than individual words, although sometimes, my communication with Spirit does come in individual words. I got a “block” of thought where I saw the entire theme of what was being communicated. Once, I get a block of thought, or information coming to me, my brain then has a chance to analyze this block of thought and it breaks it down into individual words and sentences.
In my Christian upbringing I have been taught about Satan, the devil and how Adam and Eve were deceived by the serpent in the garden, aka: Satan or the devil. I have had numerous times where I have heard preaching and teaching me warning me of anything that seemed to be of a psychic or paranormal experience, as this could be deception that would ultimately send me to hell for my beliefs. Of course, no one in his right mind would ever want perdition or everlasting damnation so we avoid anything “out of the ordinary” as if it were the serpent that deceived our forefathers, Adam and Eve.
Spirit began to communicate to me in this block of thought that I too was afraid to venture too far out of the ordinary for fear of leaving a “spiritual path.” Even in some paranormal groups or psychic phenomena seems to be a wide array of what I thought was a “carnival” type of mentality associated with it. I have always been curious about such things but avoided much of it due to “compartmentalizing” my beliefs. This is the exact word Spirit said to me about my beliefs…that they were “compartmentalized.”
Spirit went on to tell me that humans compartmentalize almost every aspect of their lives in order to “feel” safe and secure in their ideas and beliefs. Even the thought of eternal damnation or the belief in punishment or hell is after all, only a belief caused by us focusing on the subject. Thoughts can be set in stone and “cemented” if we let them.
Thoughts that have especially been engrained within our human psyche since our youth, in the form of religious beliefs and dogma seem to be the hardest to lose. The reason is because of the “fear” that is associated with the thought or belief. If we feel, for example, that by doing a particular thing we would go to hell over it, we would avoid such a thing like the plague.
God, or Spirit, showed me that many of these thoughts that have become beliefs serve us, and others don’t serve us. Thoughts of fear, or losing our salvation, or thoughts of punishment of eternal damnation and banishment from God tend to be “cemented” in our psyche to a point that we would never entertain any other thought that was contrary to this belief…lest we end up in this god-awful place of eternal punishment.
Spirit has been showing me another side of the coin of this belief system that was engrained within me from my early youth. The “flip side” of this coin is how much God loves me and every person on the face of this earth. I learned that in order to adopt a new thought, we have to “drop” the old one, or at least allow Spirit to modify the belief so that it serves our highest and best good. I love this new thought I have adopted about God, for now instead of viewing a judgmental, condemning God, I see a God of love, mercy and grace. Jesus himself taught of this concept and idea of God.
Where it becomes confusing, is when you look at the Old Testament, or the Old Covenant idea of God. Here is where many churches and religious leaders spend the bulk of their preaching and teaching on a God of wrath and judgment. It almost looks as if God himself has an “ego” like us humans have. In the Old Testament, God gets angry, wrathful, and wipes out people if they go contrary to “his” ways.
God has showed me that we can believe in this God of judgment, or we can change our belief of this God of wrath and judgment to a God of mercy, love, kindness and all the other wonderful attributes of God and Spirit. To a “Christian” believer this seems almost impossible to believe because, after all, the scripture is the “written Word of God, and God changes not.” So, if you are to believe fully in the grace, mercy and love of God without acknowledging his fierce, wrathful, and judgmental side, would only be error, or sin. Since, God hates sin and punishes people because of it, or so they believe, this constitutes betrayal to God and ultimate punishment in eternal damnation and banishment.
So, getting back to my meditation God was showing me that my thought, or prayer, was actually motivated and activated by fear of punishment if I went off on any psychic tangents when it came to my beliefs.
I saw if it were, rooms, many rooms that were representative of experiences we as humans could have. One room in particular Spirit showed me was a room of “abundance and prosperity.” Spirit showed me that I “shied” away from this room meant for me, or anyone who wanted to experience it because of my “limited and pre-conceived” beliefs that have been “built” upon, like brick and mortar, since my youth. I had this limited belief and fear, that if I were to be prospered financially I would lose touch of my spirituality, or even worse, forget God and lose my soul. This is the main reason I avoided this “room” prepared for my by God.
I then saw a picture, in my minds eye, of a young toddler child going into a room filled with toys and presents. Every conceivable present or gift was available to this young toddler for the choosing. I saw this toddler enter the room with a “gleam” of joy in its eyes, eyes enormously open and wide, and selecting from this room a toy that suited his desires. There was no judgment I might add, in the child selecting the gift or present. With child like faith it just chose one that he liked. I saw him pick the gift up and ecstatically take it out of the room for his own possession.
God told me that I could do the same as this child if I wanted too, but I was afraid to go into this particular room filled with abundance because of pre-conceived ideas that the gifts held here would be to my downfall. So, we as humans avoid a myriad of rooms available to us, and experiences we could enjoy and profit from if we only would remove the doubt, fear and strict system of belief that caused a “limited” belief or feeling about something.
Spirit showed me that all rooms are available to me and whatever is in them can be had “for the taking.” All I had to do, and all you have to do, is enter the room in child-like curiosity, and trust that God would not let us in that room if it were to be something that would ultimately hurt us or lead us astray. They key was we had to trust. At this point, one of my spiritual guides/teacher, Gwendolyn, came into the scene and said to me… “That is what she is there for…to lead me and teach me…and to protect me from anything harmful.
After all, a child in full innocence and trust can be hurt if not watched over by a parent or guardian. This was her job she told me. She is an “extension” of God, or Spirit and is here for me, in order to lead and guide me. Even Jesus, told this to his disciples that he would send the Holy Spirit, who would lead and guide them into all truth. This brought to me a sense of peace and safety as I pondered this thought from God and Gwendolyn.