Why is that some people will complain about a certain act done to them, yet then turn around and commit that same act? Isn’t it pointless to complain about something someone has done to you if you’re going to act in that same way. What makes you any better than your enemies if you stoop to thier level?
Why is that when some want revenge they will use even the ones they love the most to get it? And if your using the ones you claim to love the most, then isn’t it true that in all actuallity, it is urself that you love the most?
And if you love urself the most then why would you find pleasure in a revenge against another that will only cause them to want to have revenge against you? If you want peace then why would you participate in enticing a war?
When do we decide that enough is enough? When can begin to understand that the one that throws in the towel isn’t always the Loser? When can we understand that the man that puts his hand out to shake the hand of his enemy is actually the man who is the strongest.. it is him who has the most courage?
When will people began to speak truth? When will the things that flow from our mouths be exactly what we mean? How can one man have faith or trust in another if he can’t even trust the things that come from his own mouth?
Who is really our greatest enemy? The truth is we are our own enemy. Most times we are the creator of those very overwhelming situations that we face. When we can come to quit blaming others and take a long look in the mirror.... thats when we can start to build truly respectable characteristics.
Some circumstances in life are unavoidable. Everyone goes thru trials and tribulations. Somethings are simply not our fault. But it is when we reconize those things that we had fault in, that we can begin to change most of our circumstances.
Some of the things I’ve said have applied in my life and some are things I am seeing going on around me and it aches my heart. When I see others doing things, in order to try and understand I try to remember if I have ever done such. I want to understand. I want to help. For too many years I tried to be in control of my life. For to many years I found a way to twist truth in order to have pity on myself or in order to make everything i did okay.. to make me be right. Then one day it hit me like a ton of bricks... 90% of my issues in life was a direct result of my own bad choices. I called myself a perfectionist back then.. yet that wasn’t the truth. It was deceptive. I wanted to appear perfect... yet not actually be. No one is perfect. So why is it that I would for one second want to appear to be that way? And why is it that so many of us expect that from another either?
I set my self up for failure. And now that I see things more clearly about myself, I understand others much more clearly. Thats where peace comes in. Thats where I began to let go of all my anger and hurt. Thats when I lost all need for revenge, or envy, or lust.
I thank God not just for revealing to me who He is but for revealing to me who i am.
And everytime i look into someone else’s eyes who hasn’t given there life over to Him or even some that have but still find themselves in the same situations as before... I see me; Lost.
I see people doing some of the same things I did but yet I don’t know how to express to them that they are hurting themselves. And I think to myself, if I was talking to me back when I was blind.... what would it have took for me to understand.
It was only by the grace of God. His power, His revelation, His mercy that now I can begin to see. For someone so convicted... a non christian would think that in saying all this that maybe I am sad.... but I am so far from that. With truth and understanding comes peace and joy has followed that peace. With conviction I can grow into a person that does not have to feel condemned.
I have so far to go in order to become the woman of Christ I should be, but atleast now I know I am on that path and I am so humble to Him for that.
i just pray that somehow, someway that the things that now come from my mouth will help others.
I believe truth is the most powerful and most loving thing a person could give. I just pray that I could hit a light switch in the minds and hearts of some... and no longer will they have to sit in darkness.
Love you all,
p.s. I’m still like a baby .. learning as I go. I’m speaking my mind and thoughts in order that any revelation that comes to me does not have to be boxed in to me. As I said I learn as I go, and you are all welcome to comment back, share your thoughts, your opinions, your revelations. When we can share these things with each other we can begin the process of healing and unity.