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Lingering & Back Ground Info
1/16/2011 3:43:20 AM
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I'm lingering a bit longer in this shelter from the cold, and am feeling a little better this morning than I did last night. Today, Sunday - a day of rest that I will observe although I usually don't.
I've decided to do a regular blog. Not that I think anyone will be particularly interested. . .my life is not very exciting. But between its pathetic struggles to heal and regain balance there are still remnants of wisdom, humor, peace and faith that rise to strengthen the weaker parts. My writing is often laced with lessons for myself as well as others. Perhaps it will help someone. . .myself if no one else. I'm not sure how often I'll be able to do postings. We'll see. . .
A bit of back ground info to help you understand: I've been mostly homeless since 2005 when a flood wiped out my neighborhood. . .and some sort of dark occult began intensely targeting me and aiming to prevent a periodical publication I'd been publishing. Through their stalkings, false news paper articles and life threatening crap I lost nearly everything that was important to me. But, thanks to my own intuition and faith, I remained living. Aside from this I've faced unbelievable levels of challenges and have had no real help from anyone I knew. (I found out who my friends weren't) and have no family whom I can turn to for the type of help and protection I've deeply needed. (You don't have to feel sorry for me. I don't want pity. This is just the way its been.) Over-all I feel like I've lived about 7 lifetimes within this one. But the rest is tucked into a pocket I really don't need to re-open right now.
My present focus is on keeping the courage and strength I need to put out another paper publication, while battling Lupus, although I still have no safe place to live and no way to protect myself from the creeps who target me. I guess I'm making a bit of a kamikaze move. But its better than hiding and withering away. I can't live like that anymore! I had to make a choice and have decided that: I'd rather die writing than die hiding. . .so that I can live. Wish me luck.
P.S. One thing that has made it a bit difficult for me to openly write is that, through my past, people have often copied and taken credit for my writings. (One of my songs is even making millions for a thief - "Last Dollar" is mine.) And this has happened in many small ways also, beginning in my childhood. But I've been working on letting go of my concerns about this and sharing more of my writings, because I believe in Karma and a part of me feels sad for those who are so lost, so greedy and/or so disconnected from themselves that they can't come up with their own ideas or feelings...etc. In my heart I feel that TRUTH always wins in the end, even if its not in this lifetime. I feel thankful that most of the people, here in the den, seem connected and original. My appreciation is growing for those of you who care to read my postings and share your own unique experiences and views... I continue to enjoy you immensely. Thank you for being there.
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