An angry voice, raised into a angry shout
Is only the beginning to your madness.
You scream and shout at me,
Breaking me down the best you can.
You know if you keep at it, that I’ll break down and cry.
As soon as you start to see me weaken your madness increases,
You hit on me, waiting to see if I’ll fight back,
But duck and dodge you at least for a little while.
I fight back, but I never hit you,
Cuz I know what will happen if I do.
I cover my face and stomach,
Cuz you know that’s where I hate the most,
But you almost always outsmart me,
Not that it’s hard for anyone to do.
I curl up like a baby fetus trying to stay safe,
But I’m never safe, not when I’m around you.
As I curl up my only wish is to die,
So I never have to feel this helpless,
This hopeless, this weak, or this much pain.
Soon you take your madness to another level,
You start to kick at me,
Kicking at my ribs, chest and stomach,
Knowing that I’ll have to move my arms soon.
As soon as I move you kick and kick,
Until you get tired and it sounds like something breaks.
Before you walk away you throw an elbow into my face,
Causing me to start bleeding on the floor,
I move quickly so I don’t leave a stain
That will only upset you more.
Walking through a house I should know
With eyes glazed over with tears should be so easy for me,
But it wasn’t easy at all -
It was like running through an unknown maze.
Walking blind, gasping for air and catching blood...
Betrayal reflects through my tears glazed on
And pain flows through my veins,
But through it all, all you see is another victory.

07-09-2004