Do you want to know

Have you ever been lost,
Totally cut off from reality
Have you ever sensed a deep dark void.
Because that’s my specialty.

I can tell you all about it,
Let you feel what I feel
Let you know what I know.
And make you think it was real.

The only difference is
I feel this all the time,
For me there is no way out
I’m balancing on a very thin line.

One wrong move and I fall,
To a place where there is no light
One wrong turn and I’m forever lost
My goals completely out of sight.

Do you really want to know what that’s like,
Do you really want to know how that feels.

The deep dark scars of guilt,
The unpleasant cold in jour heart.
Trembling knees because you know,
It’s your work of art.

I made this world out of pain
And it’s kept alive by my shame,
Tried to create a refuge.
But this will never be the same.

The feelings will never go away,
Days weeks months even years will pass,
In this game I never learned how to play.