I created my own reality.
I created my own hell.
I take responsibility for what I have created.
I see contradictions clearly in the mirror of you and me.
I let myself down and I blamed you for it.
I expected you to love me unconditionally while I did not love myself unconditionally.
I was not emotionally open while I expected you to be emotionally open.
I expected nice complements from you while I did not complement myself.
I expected you to be honest while I was not honest about my own needs.
I expected you to be positive while I was not positive myself.
I did not like the reflection of me in the mirror and I tried to change the reflection (you).
I expected validation from you while I did not validate myself.
I expected your empathy for my emotions while I did not express empathy for my own emotions.
I did not feel good about myself and I expected you to feel good about me.
I expected you to be responsible for my emotions while I did not take responsibility for my own.
I expected you to love me for who I am while I did not love myself for who I am.
I wanted to be right about my beliefs while I expected you to be flexible about yours.
I was upset with your criticism while I constantly criticized myself with self-talk.
I gave my power away and I was upset that you control me.
I expected encouragement from you while I did not encourage myself.
I feared vulnerability of love so I attracted you with the same fear.
I was upset at you while in reality I was upset at myself.
I could not forgive you because I could not forgive myself.
I take responsibility for my reality
so that I can change what I have created.
Copyright .2014 by Shervin Hojat