In my best friend’s dorm room
Is where I was when I received the call.
I heard the words clearly
But I didn’t want to read the writings on the wall.
Mother was telling me
That my grandma had just passed
That very moment, it feels like
I hopped on a plane, and it crashed.
Thinking too fast, because I was so confused
A college student on the run, an overload to my shoes.
My eyes couldn’t help it, they had to cry
Suddenly I stopped, and whipped the tears from my eyes.
Heartbroken because she’s my second mother
Took care of me as a child, never let me suffer.
My grandma is a blessing
How can I not I love her.
It hurt my heart, just to look at her
In those hospital beds, band-aids and needles
Too much pain, looking at her like
Grandma please maintain
I saw it in her eyes
She didn’t want to go through it.
So I cried inside for her
Deep inside we all knew it
I call her Gun-Ga
That name came from my baby days
And thanks to support from my grandma
I’d say I am well raised.
An aggressive woman she was
But still sweet at heart.
My grandma is my angel
My masterpiece of art
And when I look at my life
She plays a huge role in it.
She was always the father in my life
When ever my daddy wasn’t in it.
I wouldn’t be who I am
If not for my grandma and mother
Even through arguments
We still loved each other.
My tears will dry up
But my love for my grandma, will never perish.
Taught me how to stay strong.
Her wisdom I truly cherish.
I can never forget the memories
They are a part of me.
Forgetting a thing like that
Would be to erase me.
She’d do anything for me
That is a fact
When ever I had problems
Grandma had my back
They say a big star appeared in the skies
The night God took her away.
It was a sign to all of us
God needed her more than we.
Cause now she can watch over us
Lord knows how much I’ll miss her.
One day I’ll wake up
And plan to go visit and kiss her
But this is a lifetime challenge
And she’d only want me to be strong.
So I will take my family’s hand
And tell them to hold on.
My grandma is my flesh
My grandma is my bone
Grandma helped make me a woman
She wants me to move on.
So no matter how hard
That this challenge may be.
I know I can do it
My grandma see’s it in me
I saw it in her, and now my grandma is free.
She’ll always hold my hand, she’ll help me succeed.
A strong black female, yes that’s what I call her
I will be proud to tell my future kids all about her.
If I see her in the mirror
As I wash my soft face
I know she’s smiling back at me
Taking my heart to embrace.
No need to stay on this earth
We all know it’s hell.
But I look up to my grandma
Told her I will not fail.
And as the years go by
I may shed a few tears.
Of all the past years.
But we cannot prevail
If we don’t forgive our past
And even the best things in life
Won’t always last
I look at the road ahead
And I must go straight
Even when the devil tells me
I will continue to be
Who my grandma helped create
Those who have not been there
I put chances with opportunities
And take my place
And look heaven in the eye
With a smile on my face
And if someone asks me
How long has she been gone.
I’ll say, my grandma didn’t leave
She was just never at home.
So I look at her and say, thank you
Blessed with your love, I am Thankful.
Always and forever
I will miss you.
I LOVE YOU GRANDMA. WORD CAN NOT DESCRIBE HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU, BUT I GAVE IT MY BEST SHOT. I LOVE YOU DEARLY
Nneka J. Howell (Lady Poet)
This poem is featued in my book "A Poet's Heart" and can be found via amazon.com & www.liberatedpublishing.com