I was thinking the “every-other day”, how “this is the strangest life I’ve ever known!” The first twenty-seven years of my “life” was a metaphorical amalgamation…. A blur! It is fuzzy, still, to me…. Only now am I wiping away the “dreams” from my eyes. I am someone else’s hallucinogenic trip…. I just almost always never knew! OHhhhh! Now I want to sip from the champagne-skies and toast the tonic sunset. ……. I want to close the shutters of Eve’s draperies as poetically as possible! It’s true you know…. That time has its’ ways of “taking us back” as we wither… Older. Protoplasm turns into the infinitesimal atom………. From beginning to end and back again! It is the suede darkness that I desire…. No!! I want the dawn! Maybe.... I long for the morning after, just before the fleeting sun rises. There is a dark steed galloping and “galumphing” through the foothills of the western skies…. Just before the jeweled light glints and glimmers it is like a million rubies brief in brilliance. I want to delve into that plastic oblivion where nod-armies run wild on the borders of night! …… Nay!!!! I want to flee into “inexistence” to keenly observe insanity…. Let me sleep a little longer I beg thee…. For I want to run on vague sandy beaches where tormented oceans roar…. I WANT TO BE BURIED IN SAND! When the vibrations blare my mind enters and penetrates into papier-mache’ forests! I want to burrow and crawl through the dreams of infant-infinity wavering through canyons of crayon colors. (Crayola shadows) I long to be born again in the figments of some other entities fantasy! I want to tread the great landscapes of consciousness………… Like John Lennon… “Cause you’re making me feel like I’ve never been born”……… More!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! More!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh unquenchable ID…. Unbreakable Ego! I want more and nothing else… I want an unachievable ideal. I want to be under the seas beneath their fluidity…. Always moving but going nowhere! Seething here to there and into eerie soothing, into a starfish galaxy of silted-sand constellations… An operatic overture out of tune in neon rambunctiousness under the black light sunset… Where-fore never more is omnipresent!!!!!!!!! Every door has a key! Every Day has to mourn! Every sky has clouds that try! Every Ocean has its rock bottom moors!
Everyone is born again over and over again, surely as a book has meaning… I just want to dream…. I just want to change!
I JUST WANT TO COME HOME!