what if you never thought of my special day?
what if you never made that phone call?
what if i never lifted the phone & took that call you made? & a month later,
what if we never bumped into each other on a busy road, waiting for transport?
what if we never got on the same transport?
what if i never entertained your redundant calls following that one ride with you?
what if i never allowed you to see me again?
what if i never went out with you?
what if i chose him instead of you?
what if you were never that persistent?
what if he was as persistent as you?
what if you never knew how to sweep me off her feet?
what if i shut my doors at you after a few dates?
what if i never tried cooking for you?
what if you never stayed after dinner?
what if that kiss never happened?
what if that kiss did happen, & what if we decided to just forget about it?
what if you never called back the next day, and the days after?
what if i made you wait a little longer?
what if i never fell for you...& you didn't for me too ?
what if there was no us?
what if your old folks' preferences never got in the way?
what if I was on their preference list?
what if you never left me alone where I was?
what if we never grew apart as the years went on?
what if your chosen career never prospered?
what if you never had the kind of money that you've always wished for our future?
what if i never waited for you to earn your dream?
what if i never gave up my career?
what if i did but never allowed you to snatch my dreams away from me?
what if i never listened to you?
what if money wasn't way too much to make you forget, there was still me?
what if money, women, and liquor were not meant to intoxicate & turn everything around?
what if there was no SHE?
what if i had left you earlier before SHE even appeared?
what if we never counted years together?
what if we never made plans for us in all those years?
what if maturity was more than enough?
what if we had the same concept of love & fidelity?
what if we had the same conviction?
what if you looked up and seen the clouds above you & realized that "Wow there HE is, watching everything that I do"?
what if i ran away with HIM after you drifted away from commitment, instead of running back to you?
what if you had an overflowing FAITH that we're gonna make it through?
what if you never happened in my life?
...will there be no rain?
what if i never happened in yours?
...will there be no pain?
what if you returned, but then i already fell out of love
...& there was no more US?
what if one slight deviation from reality was done?
...will it ever change everything that I have had?
what if i wasn't strong enough?
...will i be this much happier now?
15 June 2008
mood: :P :) ;D :D) deranged! well -- jst a bit! hahah!