Here I am this lonely clown sad and feeling down
No one here to share with me where’s my jewelled crown?
The crowd outside all come to see performance that I do
Can no one out there handle me? Is it me or you?
Female form to snuggle up skin on skin so warm
Someones’ lips to re-act to my mind’s in a storm
Two are here they cuddle up kiss and pet so long
Why not me? I do not know. Is it I am wrong?
Bastards to the women win or so it seems to me
Am I meant to be alone? Is this what’s being free?
Bastard I can never be for that is not my way
Where’s my Lady? I need you more and more each day
Talk so long my search goes on, on the stage once more
When I exit from the world outside I see closed door
Mysterious Lady please come soon share with me my love
Transcending all the f*cking shit on the wings of doves
Here I am but here alone are you in the crowd?
Will I find you being quiet or by being loud?
I feel angry and let down pissed off and all that shit
Seems to me I’m way down low in a big dark pit
Light does not appear to me all my ways seem blocked
Is this what I’m all about? Mentally I’m f*cked!
Are my thoughts so different? Are my ways so strange?
This seems so at least to me. Is my brain deranged?
Am I of the Human Race? Alien maybe?
Where’s my Lady? I need you I hope that you need me
So once more I take the stage making people laugh
Wish that I could laugh out loud does that seem so daft?
Up goes notice one more time will she see it now?
I am here but where are you? Life you are a cow
What am I to do from here? How to find my way
Oh my Lady please come soon please say that you’ll stay
This mans’ clown with make-up off mask of fun aside
Underneath a mask of tears flowing like a tide
Soon the crowd will come on in is she there for me?
Happy mask I will put on so that they can’t see
Schizophrenic? I don’t know I am not too sure
But I will, I know I must, search and find the door
I’ll break through all on my own booze and drugs no way
I will not give in to them with myself I’ll stay
So my Lady if you’re there I am here for you
Meanwhile I will keep on searching for a love so true