Love Gone Wrong
The man I love can’t love me
He tries but all his eyes can see
Is how much I give, and I give too much
Especially when I’m in his arms
and longing for his touch
The man I love won’t let me love myself
If I did, he’d be somewhere on a back shelf
With him there’s no way, to see those dark clouds approaching
I’m blinded by his thighs, and yet I keep hoping
The thought of being alone frightens me to no end,
So I keep him around, saying he’s just a good friend.
The choice wasn’t mine, not so long ago
I was surrounded by those who really cared, but my blindness closed their doors.
He’s not just my friend, he’s cover for so much more
The pains in my past, yes the loves that did not last, and I’m left crying on the floor.
He’s company at the table in the restaurant I love so well.
It’s his opened gift on birthdays, since my friends forget to mail.
He the chuffer in that car that I’ve driven down so many lonely roads
Maybe that’s why I keep giving him my new number, and buying him expensive clothes.
He helps pay my bill, - without a legal job, but if he rides the RTA he’s sure to get mobbed.
He maintains a secret life, that just might get me killed,
Yet I must admit - there’s just something about that thrill
When I’m on his side, no one messes with me, but the truth lies deep inside, one day I hope to be free.
And yes theirs the other women, I wish would burn in hell
But then who would take care of all his kids and offer to pay his bail.
I’m in church every Sunday, and at the altar at least twice a month,
Lord I need your help, deliver me from me and this punk.
Then in His still small voice He reminds me of what my mama said.
If you keep him out your BED
Your mind WILL clear your head
And your heart will find its way HOME
© 5/2011 Kathy A. E. Jones