copyright 2008 by K. Lowery Moore

As a little girl,
I suffered a tremendous tragedy
I was ten years old
When my mother was taken away from me
Who would have known
She would leave so soon—a heart attack
And no amount of tears
Could ever bring her back
So to cover my pain, I put pen to paper
Constantly asking God,
Why did He have to take her?
With every accomplishment,
Over and over, I cried
Nothing could seem to ease
My pain inside
I want her to see the phenomenal woman I’ve become
I wanted her to be here
For all the things I have done
I need her to tell me
How proud she is of me
But I stop pleading
Because I know that will never be
So, again, I’m angry and
I still struggle

Judging from the outside,
You may think I’ve got it going on
Not realizing there are times
I wish I was never born
I’m still torn, struggling with
The feelings of abandonment
It’s not that my mother died,
It’s just the way she went
Then one day something amazing happened, God sent me a sign
I heard a voice saying,
“My child why are you crying?”
A feeling of inner peace
Would soon appear
My God told me,
Your mother is always near
Although she is not physically here, She has never left you
She has been there for everything
You have been through
The birth of your children,
She was right there
So you have to stop thinking
That life isn’t fair
I made you strong,
So I had to test your belief
And it pains me to see
I’ve caused you so much grief
But I had to prepare you
For your calling
You are still standing
When you could have easily fallen
I have chosen you for a special purpose
Nothing you have done
In your life is worthless
You may not see it now,
But it is all for reason
I encourage you
To always keep on believing
I need you to motivate and uplift
Have faith in Me
Because I gave you that gift
Just know your mother
Looks down on you with a smile
And she whispers, my Lord
I am so proud that is my child