What if there was no nine eleven?
Would I ponder so much about heaven?
What if my life hadn’t changed?
Would my travels have so far ranged?
What if I hadn’t met a certain few?
Would I today know any of you?
What if my life had remained the same?
Would I be querying the self as to my being sane?
What if Rufuz did not come to live with me?
Would I be anymore or less happy?
What if my life had gone in a different direction?
Would I still over the old get an erection?
What if I did not take anti-depressants?
Would I be alive right now to answer these questions?
What if I did allow old thoughts that I should not have,
Overtake me and allow me to do things I should not do?
What if I did just run away?
What would happen then I cannot say…?
© ed ~ 1/26/05