I didn't know a heart could die
Before it stopped beating.
I didn't know a life could cease
Before it stopped breathing.
I didn't know how devastation
Could wend a living soul
I didn't know how death could make
Us lose all self control.
I didn't know the pain of loss
Was so intense and sharp.
I didn't know the depth of void
Death leaves within the heart.
I didn't know how often tears
Would redden hurting eyes.
I didn't know how hard it was
To say one's last good-byes.
I didn't know that pain would come
And go as it well pleased.
I didn't know that joy is scarce
To those who are bereaved.
I didn't know that time would stop
And meaning cease to be.
I didn't know that friends would pray
But shy away from me.
I didn't know how difficult
To get the whole night through.
I didn't know the strength it took
For simple tasks to do.
I didn't know that as time pass
Slowly, the pain subsides.
I didn't know what I thought was lost
Still in my heart resides.
Now I know a little spark,
Somehow in me remained.
Now I know that someway,
My life will be sustained.
Now I know the feelings felt,
Was all a part of grief.
Now I know how fervent prayer
Helped me to find relief.
So rest assured my unknown friends,
Though healing comes real slow.
It actually does get better
For now, I truly know.
For Iíve survived my babyís death
That occurred this time last year.
I still feel the loss and always will
But the pain is much less severe.