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A Peace Of Mind
by Bennett
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
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A poetic story from the Author
about releasing all the childhood
abuse in verse.

Oh peace be free

Oh mind relax

settle down,


because the storms are so unkind,

I am about to lose my mind!

Dear God I'm on my knees, stop this abuse!

 Can't you see I need a peace of mind!

I'd rather lock myself in school today then

I don't have to go home to face another hit,

the belt, a stick, names they call me,

I'd rather deal with

.These years of beatings are a child's waste of time.

Dear Lord bring me some relief where's my peace of mind?

The swollen lips, bloody lips, smacks to the wall, foot on my neck,

hot comb dragging through my scalp, piss licked off the floor,

Father I can't take it no more!

Why in the hell did they adopt me for?

From the beatings I need a peace of mind.

From the not being wanted

I need a peace of mind.

From all the lies,  secrets, embarrassments,

I need a peace of mind.

I became an adult looking for love

still needing a peace of mind.

Fom broken promises

to satisying to not so satisfying sex,

looking forlove

I needed a peace of mind.

Supressing the pain with alcohol,

Damn this world!

I need a peace of mind!
Dear God in heaven where is my peace of mind?

Homeless, feeling the cold

No money or food to eat.

Doors are locked all around me

Frozen has become my tiny little feet

Won't someone take me in so that I

can rest for  a while, take in a little sleep.

After 37 years of people being so unkind

nearly losing my mind NOW











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Reviewed by Jackson Aniefiok 2/5/2009
i like your poem, it really shows beauty inside and outside.
Reviewed by Stuart McCallum 9/2/2008
Reading your powerful write shows me a strong lady that will indeed get her more than deserving 'peace of mind'. Nobody deserves to have been treated so badly as you have been, I respect you for being you.
Take good care,
Reviewed by D Johnson 5/20/2007
Aleja, you wrote this nearly a year ago and you are still coming through the storm. You are strong, powerful and able to be even stronger on the other end. In the meantime,

I wish you peace,
Reviewed by Ch'erie de Perrot 5/15/2007
I don't know how i missed this, but I am glad to of found this write even now.
Courage is what it takes, to carry on, to keep the wind behind you instead of in front, spread your wings and fly high, soar as on eagles wings, and let that peace of mind that God so badly wants to give you, come in and fill your mind and soul.
I can relate to these so nearly, as i was raised in abusive home..
I have only written the one, "methinks thou doth protest too much" but it only scratches the surface. I need to pen more, as there is more to release.
TY for your reviews dear one, stay well, and may God give you all the strength and blessings you need and deserve. Remember we are all his children and he loves the little children.
Your Kiwi/ozzie mate
Ch'erie xxxxx
Reviewed by E. Farrand 4/14/2007
You were showing your strength and growth by writing this. It's very well written, Aleja. You will attain your Peace of Mind.
Reviewed by Shirley Harber 3/2/2007
I will never understand how people can be so cruel. I pray for you and all others who have had to put up with this. There was a case like this here in the UK just last week when will it ever stop we need more people like you to speak out.
Reviewed by Debra Baker 2/21/2007
I don't know if this story be true, but if so. To adopt a child, then abuse them over the years. I ask only where were the teachers, the ministers, neighbors. If your cries went un-answered, then God forgive their souls. May peace come your way and you find your soul again. I shall pray your children come back to you someday. This was a soul searching for peace write. It truely touched my heart.
Reviewed by Daring Sunshine 10/20/2006
Many prayers go out for you and your children....and I will tell others your need; we all will pray.
Reviewed by Shinya Yawakazi 10/20/2006
The same goes for you Aleja your poetry is awesome I love all of them continue writing and stay strong girl!^_^
Reviewed by Richard Christopher Suarez 10/16/2006
Excellent Real Expression and I Know it;s not easy !
Seek peace and pursue it !
writing like this is doing just that and I can relate!
Once again; Excellent!
Jesus love save the Day!
Reviewed by David Arthur Walters 10/14/2006
Aleja, I wish you peace of mind and body. I believe that speaking up as you have done does do some good, although not all the beasts will be tamed. David
Reviewed by CJ Heck 10/11/2006
Wow, Aleja, this is powerful, an extraordinary write. There are all types of coping mechanisms built into the human mind, but in my opinion, writing is one of the best. It is an exceptional way, if one has the gift to write and YOU DO, to kick all of the bad out and let the healing begin. There was so much power, so much emotion, so much letting go in your poem! You are in my thoughts and prayers, hon. You go girl!
Much love,
Reviewed by M Flack 10/7/2006
I agree that the written word is a great catharsis. It lets us express our inner feelings and pains in a safe place. While reviewing the ways we can survive and grow from the paid experiences...

God is also a great way of healing and moving on with life. I trust he is a very special friend and comfort to you...
Reviewed by Elizabeth Taylor (Reader) 9/25/2006
Writing is an excellent catharsis.
Power of the mind...see it the way you want it to be, and it will happen to some degree. Make it positive.

Reviewed by Dove JoAnne Cromp (Reader) 9/25/2006
Precious dearest woman of God, I hear you and you are delivered precious angel..LOVE YA!!!

Reviewed by Joyce Bowling 9/25/2006
Oh my God...this has to be one of the most powerful writings that I have ever read...I teach first grade and I see this kind of thing often...I admire what you are doing, there is a need our world is in crisis mode. Again, wonderful writing...check out feeding the pain, and it could be me.. on my page..I am anxious to read more, and will gladly track you...again I commend you for a job well done.

Blessings always,
Joyce Bowling
Reviewed by Robert Blackwell 8/23/2006
I am glad to become a passive part of your healing process through reading such poignant words.
Reviewed by Miss Pandora 7/28/2006
What an amazingly strong, emotive and brutally honest write. It speaks such volumes Aleja, I am almost lost for words. That such inner strength shines through your work, is wonderful. Panda :)
Reviewed by Nolene Dougan 7/21/2006
An amazing and disturbing poem which brings the reality of abuse and its long term affects to the reader instantly.
Reviewed by Judy Meeker 7/19/2006
Your poem is wonderful. Jesus is the only way, I agree. Thank you for sharing this with us. You did a fine job.
Judy Meeker
Reviewed by Phyllis Du'Gas 7/8/2006
Arriving at peace is a silent knowing that we share with God.
Reviewed by L. Figgins 6/27/2006
So Strong

I swallow mouthfuls of poison
with no ill effects now
The good girl gone wrong
baby ball-fisted in spite
I spit back what is

I outgrew my usefulness
as your favorite scapegoat
The doormat's been replaced
the overhaul long overdue
Push me now and I push back

I see you as you are
that's my greatest sin
I reflect what you refuse to see
remind you of the weakness
your pride won't accept

That frightened little girl
curled up against your pitiful rage
is gone-so strong
Now you're the helpless one
so small-so small
that you made me strong

So long!

LG 2006

Reviewed by Connie Hinnen Cook 6/27/2006
May the Prince of Peace
grant you the peace you seek.
Powerful words in this piece, Aleja.
Reviewed by Andre Bendavi ben-YEHU 6/25/2006
It seems that we should have "AN ABUSE WATCHER GROUP" in every building, and or every street in this country. (USA) The number of child abuse increases every month.

"A Peace Of Mind" opens the doors of Justice. May we enter and become a responsible society.

I have learned again reading Your works, Poet.


Andre Emmanuel Bendavi ben-YEHU
Reviewed by Ron (sketchman) Axelson 6/14/2006
I hope your free from all the abuse.
I went through a lot of the same.
It was all unnecessary.
Thanks for stopping my way....
Also, a great write from your heart and soul..
Reviewed by Chrissy McVay 4/30/2006
A very honest, raw write...
Reviewed by Amy Avatar 4/29/2006
You have so much inner strength...
I see it shining powerfully
through your wonderful poetry...
Bravo! Atta Gorl! You are a winner...
Thanks for sharing so much.
Amy Ramdass
Reviewed by Rhonda Galizia 4/28/2006
I understand you, and your intense, inwardly-crucifying pain...I hurt with you, weep with you, and rejoice in your victory, Aleja! At some future time, perhaps, you can visit my work, and read LIVING DESOLATION. {I just joined and only have posted one work so far!] I will keep you and your daughter in my prayers. The LORD bring you His peace, Child.
Reviewed by Barbara Terry 2/20/2006
From the beatings
I need a peace of mind.
From the not being wanted
I need a peace of mind.
From all the lies,
the secrets,
the embarrassments,
I need a peace of mind.

This stanza is so true of me. All I ever wanted was to be my mother's daughter and have her love me as her daughter. But she threw me away, hoping she would never see me again. Why? What had I done to make her hate me so much? But through those terrible years of abuse of all kinds, my soul came out unscathed and unharmed, because I refused to let them see how terrified I really was. Yes Aleja, we are defintely survivors.

Thnx for you review of I Am A Survivor, it is really very much appreciated and so important to me. But I am saddened to, that you had to go through all of what you were forced to endure. No child should ever have to have her or his innocence stolen like that.

May God in His mercy Aleja, bless you, and keep you from all harm. May the God of Heaven also bless those whom you dearly love, and be with you always and at your side constantly. May the God of Heaven Aleja, send His Angels to watch over you, and guide you, so that you will not stumble. May the God of Heaven, Give you what you desire most, a peace of mind. Dear God in Heaven, I ask that all I have asked for for Aleja, be given in the name of your Son Jesus, our Redeemer and our Savior. Amen.

With much love in my heart, joy to the world, peace on earth, & ((((((((((MANY WONDERFUL SISTERLY HUGGGGSSSS)))))))))), your little sister in Christ our Lord, Barbie

"If I have to be this girl in me, Then I have the right to be."
Reviewed by Marguerite Lemoine 2/12/2006
Dear Child - Of course, you need PEACE . The Father God wishes for us to have it - That is why he sent the Son 'JESUS' to take those beatings for us; he wore the crown of thorns 'verbal abuse' and he died on a cross naked so we would not have to suffer the loss of our soul--you will have eternal peace, love, and all you desire when you come into the Kingdom - but he will give it to you now - you only have to ask but youmust live by the Commandments.
Reviewed by William Bonilla 1/31/2006
This an awesome write
sad as it may be
Your writing is fantastic
I too know that feeling of waiting for the belt
As I was warned by my mother
"Wait till your father comes home"
No matter how long the hours
They flew like a wind storm, to me as a kid.
that occurred all to often, now that I look back
down the line of time.

Love & Peace

Reviewed by Birgit and Roger Pratcher 1/28/2006
So filled with emotion and strength, great work Aleja,
Blessings, Birgit and Roger
Reviewed by Rhonda Baumgardner 1/24/2006
thank you for your words. I will be reading more of yours.
Reviewed by Cynth'ya 1/21/2006
God said no weapon formed against you will prosper. Stand strong in the Lord and the power of HIS might. No abuse can stand where Christ has defeated it already in your mind. So continue with writings like this one. . . I'd love to see you publish a themed collection of writings someday soon just on this subject alone (if you don't have one in the works already.)

Appreciate you Sis Aleja, I'll be in touch.
Reviewed by Suzie Palmer 1/18/2006
Dearest Aleja
As beautiful Sage expressed you have found a slice of peace here in your friends at authorsden! A deep blessing it is to be gifted with the ability to express yourself through pen -- mightier than the sword! Your experiences and writings are helping people beyond your wildest dreams, and therefore your life is the greatest treasure, so very precious! Aleja keep shining your amazing light despite and because of it All!
With Love & Friendship Suzie xoxox :-)
Reviewed by Sandie Angel 1/17/2006
Powerful emotional work! Well-expressed from the poet's heart!

Lucky Star Sandie May Angel :o(
Reviewed by Felix Perry 1/17/2006
Powerful emotional work of highest quality because the reader knows the sincerity of the work comes directly from the writers heart, no matter how painful it is to write.

Reviewed by Mark Rockeymoore 1/17/2006
God is good, indeed. That you are still here, is his blessing, for He does not give us more than we can handle. Bless you, this was wonderful expression, and I'm glad that you are using poetry to help yourself heal.
Reviewed by Kate Burnside 1/17/2006
Your painful biog brought tears to my eyes... let alone this write. I am a notorious gas-bag, but I am humbled and choked by the enormity of all this suppressed torture. I won't do my usual epic screed - there is just tooo much to know where to start. But I am so thankful that you have found genuine love, peace and restoration for your body, mind and soul in the arms of Jesus Christ and that together you can walk out and work out the pain of this life experience into resolution. I KNOW you will be blessed and will be and ARE a blessing to many who have yet to face these kinds of ugly traumas. Those of us who have known anxiety at any level in our lives can perhaps testify to the same desire for peace and SLEEEEEEEP... my idea if heaven is stillness and rest; perfect equilibrium. I look forward to joining you on your journey into complete healing and wholeness. Grace, strength and peace to you, Aleja. LOL Kate xx
Reviewed by Tyrone Banks 1/17/2006
I am sorry for all of the abuse and violence that you've been subjected to. I will pray for your peace of mind and although you may have felt as if no one wanted you you can rest assured that God wants you and he will use your knowledge and painful memories as a source for you to draw from as you help others.

"Homeless, feeling the cold,
No money or food to eat.
Doors are locked all around me
Frozen has become my tiny little feet.
Won't somebody take me in
so that I can rest
and get a little sleep."

....When someone else feels this, and Angel of kindness, found within you will give help to someone who has no one to turn to. You've survived this so that you can help and heal others.

May God Bless you Aleja and grant you the peace that you deserve in the name of Jesus Christ.

Your friend,

Tyrone V. Banks

Reviewed by Abdi-Noor Mohamed (Eagle Of Hope) 1/16/2006
Painful experience. Thanks for sharing
Reviewed by Carole Mathys 1/16/2006
This is so painful to read, you are to be admired for getting past it and moving on in a positive way. I too find that writing heals many things...keep writing
Love and peace to you

Reviewed by OnepoetGem *the Poetic Rapper 1/16/2006
I feel the pain in this piece Aleja. What doesn't kill us should make us stronger, as you seem to be. Great reflecting poeming. Peace&love GEM
Reviewed by Only A Poet 1/16/2006
deeply touching and disturbing to contemplate such emotional pain. well penned Lovely Lady.
Reviewed by J M 1/16/2006
A painful read and mush too often it is reality for so many. Life is precious and we were not created to be abused. Finding the true light removes the scars and pains. Allows us to share with those still hurting.
Reviewed by Henry Lefevre 1/16/2006
Why does it begat depravity?

Will we ever know?
Will we ever remove it?
May we never condone it!
Reviewed by Karla Dorman, The StormSpinner 1/16/2006
Painful to read, you may have saved many lives with your provocative, real, honest words. :) I hope you're out of that situation...well done!

(((HUGS))) and love, Karla.
Reviewed by Peter Paton 1/16/2006
A very honest, painful and endearing write Aleja
Have Faith In God !
The Lord is the Giver of All, to them that love and trust him !
Reviewed by Kate Clifford 1/15/2006
Continue the release as it cleans not only you but all who read you. I can promise you nothing but I hold you in my thoughts for positive forward movements that bring to you the peace you need.
Reviewed by George Carroll 1/15/2006
A horror story for sure and one that is happening almost every day at the hands of sadistic and heartless people who will one day pay the ultimate price in hell. I hope you have found that peace that was denied to you. Your faith in God has saved you.
Reviewed by Sandra Mushi 1/12/2006
Darn, Aleja! How did I miss this one? I thought I had read all your poems! Such a painful and moving write! I ope you final got your peace of mind! Keep the faith strong - with Him all is possible.

God bless,

Reviewed by Joy Leftow 1/5/2006
Beautifully written and expressed, Bravo!
Reviewed by Phyllis Jean Green 1/4/2006
I can't say enough good things about this. . .y o u. From my experience, peace is a sometime thing -- especially after surviving
an abusive childhood and fighting a long, hard battle with
alcohol --, but you will have more peaceful moments as you
go along. Let yourself shine!! S t a n d t a l l !! No one
deserves more to feel proud of her accomplishments. Of
herSELF. You are SOMEBODY!!! You are SPEAKING UP!! You are a SHINING EXAMPLE who will help so many people who are suffering and struggling. B R A V O B R A V I S S I M O !!!!!!
Reviewed by Betty Torain 1/2/2006
I know this is real I feel it in my spirit. I want for you a HAPPY NEW YEAR. Yes, peace can be yours. You have made the first step.

May God be with you always and He is. Love, betty, Mother of the Universe.
Reviewed by Nordette Adams 12/15/2005
This is real and stuffed with soul, power, and genuine emotion. Glad to have read you. ~~Nordette
Reviewed by Regis Auffray 12/15/2005
I wish you peace and tranquility, Aleja. Thank you for sharing these soul-reaching thoughts. Love and peace to you.

Reviewed by Tinka Boukes 12/15/2005
Excellent write!!

Yes through our poetry we can free ourselfs from pain deep within!!

Welcome to my den of sadness well known!!

Love Tinka
Reviewed by Karen Cino 12/15/2005
Awesome write. THis is so full of emotions and pain. You have found your peace here on Authors Den. Authors Den is like your hom away from home. God Bless you for getting through your tragedy and being able to express it through the written word.
Good BLess you neightbor....I'm from Staten Island. Love to you this holiday season.
Reviewed by Rebecca Burns 12/15/2005
Wow. That was really deep and moving. I know some of the pain in that poem, the writing will help set that poor child free.
Love and Peace
Reviewed by Sage Sweetwater 12/14/2005
You found it here, Aleja. Here on Authors Den we give you peace of mind. We ask nothing in return. Please enjoy your peace of mind. I will sleep better knowing you have a peace of mind. Take care of you. Good Luck on your new book! Blessed Be.

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