~ Holiday Blues ~
presents all opened and admired
safely secured for travel
one last toast offered
glasses raised high
hugs and smiles all around
waving them off with tears
in front of the fireplace
wine glass half empty
staring into the flames
I put my holiday face away
letting in those private thoughts
I hide behind a smiling face
in this self imposed solitude I am not alone
holiday doldrums drape shroud like over me
walking into my shadow places
taking indecision and confusion with me
answers still remain illusive
playing hide and seek with my equilibrium
fragmented thoughts and memories
peeling outwards one upon the other
in an intricate labyrinth
of overlapping whorls
coiling together
in convoluted images
yet memories strand me on the barrier of loneliness
in my personal void of isolation
©2005
Carole Mathys