Am I Blue?
by Meredith Dixon
Sunday, January 01, 2006
Rated "PG" by the Author.
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Waiting for the promise. Waiting for the go-ahead to love once again.
Am I blue, thinking about you?
Do you want the truth?
It's hard without you.
I mean I can live without you but the
difficult part is
knowing you can live without me more.
I can wait but now you've let me know that the future looks grim;
why must you always be so negative?
Do I just keep pulling back and pulling my feelings all into myself?
That would be easier than thinking of you.
My heart would still hurt knowing what could be.
Why can't I give you the hope, the faith to work on us?
Is it true ; you're just giving up?
Am I on a shelf now
collecting dust until the next time?
Your words affect me so much;
it seems quite unfair.
But in my love for you, I would never want to make you feel this hurt.
Am I blue? Wouldn't it be nice if things could just work out?
Am I blue? Wouldn't it just be nice if you could be hopeful about this?
You came back into our lives and it's true that it all just happened.
It's no one's fault.
But the pain is still here.
Knowing that you will probably not try hard enough.
Why must you be so stubborn and not see it all in the way I do?
You did this before and when you came back I was gone.
I can wait but not feeling like this.
A promise to truly try; is that so hard to make?
To try, to hope, to have faith in yourself and us?
How about some faith in me this time?
I am blue just reading the note from you.
You sound so detached and so realistic.
You already know that I know how hard it is for you or I am trying to to at least.
But do you ever look at me and see the difficulties I've faced?
Isn't it true that two are stronger than one?
Or do you just want to be blue?
I don't and I want to taste the joy.
I want the mundane, the ups and downs of real life in love.
I've been like you.
Stuck in the middle and not seeing ahead.
But it's time to move onto a different path,
But it's my opinion only and never enough to change your mind.
So I am blue knowing you and how you are.
Is it true that you will throw this all away?
There's so much love here for you and it's your choice to make.
There's no rush except in your promise to take the time to work on it sincerely.
If you had it any easier with us,
it would be quite insane.
If I made it harder for you,
it would just be playing a game.
I love you too much to ever do that to you
so I'll be blue until you show me your heart if it's true .
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|Reviewed by Shoma Mittra
|I liked this poem so much. there in intense feeling which comes through.|
|Reviewed by George Carroll
|Love does have its rough spots that have to be worked out. But when the road is constantly full of pot holes it's time to take a detour and seek a smoother road in life that will give you the satifaction you are searching for.|
|Reviewed by Felix Perry
|Wow this is one powerful write and one that part of me says walk away but the other half that has been in your very shoes waiting for love to happen says I am routing for you to have a happy ending.
Great write on both accounts.