In darkness, I reside,
From the suffering, I hide.
In silence, I remain,
Left voiceless from the pain.
A feeling quite new,
Unsure what to do.
Heart racing with fear,
Trying to deicide,
Why it was I cried,
And felt empty inside,
As though my soul had died.
Then you look at me and take my hand,
And suddenly I understand,
The reason why my heart’s in two
Is because, I’m in love with you.
Endless ways of confessing,
Countless ways of expressing,
All the things I feel for you,
But what I dread is what you’ll do.
Will you react with a smile or frown?
Will you say yes or turn me down?
Will I have made a big mistake,
And simply added to my heartache.
I essay to veil my eyes,
They’ll speak for me, you’ll realise.
When I’m with you I hide the truth,
A blithe façade masks my ruth.
I risk a glance, a hopeful stare,
But you look back, like you don’t care,
I realise and start to shake,
I feel my heart about to break.
I’m paralysed by your wonted gaze,
My mind is lost in a turbid maze,
My tongue lies still, my throat grows dry,
I crave to run, to shun and shy.
Still, I ask my self “What if?”
What if you never knew?
Would I dwell on what never was,
Instead of being loved by you…