Ellen, I will miss you so
by Meredith Dixon
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
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Ellen Duffy 194?-2006
Here are the roses now for you
Sorry I am so late
in gathering them for you
Meant to call you
I really did
Things got so busy
and then thought I still had plenty of time
to let you know
you were a great friend to me
Needed to tell you
wanted to hear your voice
Wanted to encouage you
and tell you about the "kids"
It's been five years
since time has taken us apart
and Ellen, thought we had more time
to even see each other
catch up on the news
Talk about our kids
Talk about the past
Talk about the present
Talk about the future
Uncertain for you
but so it is for us all
But Ellen, I am so selfish
I just wanted to talk to you
and then we got the news today
In Goodwill in all places
and flopping down
I will never forget
the color of the chair that I was sitting in
and he was telling me that you had died
I was really hoping that he had lied.
Just kept saying that I don't believe it.
I kept asking "why", "when" and "how"
but nothing told me how you really have been and who you were today or yesterday.
Why does time have to go by so fast
that we can lose touch?
When we care and love so much?
Wonder if you were so busy fighting your battle that you couldn't keep up yourself
you were like a sister to me
You made a great Aunt to my children
Then we moved away.
I know you are with the Lord
but still I cry
can't call you up on the phone
or send you those pictures I had meant to send so long ago.
Thought you had more time
thought we had more time.
Just want you to know
that the tears we shed were true
not without hope but it hurt to know that you
are not here anymore
hopefully, we'll meet up again
that is my hope
I told Rachael don't cry without hope.
But we both cried anyway in the middle of a store
and we didn't care
and no one really stared.
We just sat there
crying for a beautiful lady
who means so much to so many others.
Isn't it too late to send the flowers now?
Isn't it too late to send those cards I had waiting?
so here I am
honoring you and telling whoever reads this
that Ellen was a great friend to many.
I can't even think what your husband is going to do without you
living in the mountains in a giant house.
Your children have to go on
without your loving guidance
and your grandchildren will never get to feel your warm embrace and love.
Ellen, it's just not fair.
Ellen, it really hurts to care.
But that was just like you
I could have told you all about this
but you can't hear right now.
So, sweet Ellen
see you someday
and I'll talk to you
in my own way.
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|Reviewed by Barbara Terry
|Thank you Meredith. Such a sweet tribute to such a fine lady in your life and the life of your children. Thnx for sharing sis. This is a very heartfelt, soulful, and emotional tribute.
May the Lord Jesus bless you, and the soul of Ellen Duffy, and all others that you love so deeply. May He be with you always, and at your sdie constantly. With much love in my heart, joy to the world, peace on earth, & ((((((((((MANY WONDERFUL SISTERLY HUGGGGSSSS))))))))), your little sister, Barbie
"If I have to be this girl in me, Then I have the right to be."
|Reviewed by Elizabeth Taylor (Reader)
|Even when you expect it, it can be such a shock.
And who said she can't hear you now?
Tell her about all the things you meant to say...death ends a life only, not a relationship. Wishing you well.
Your work captures the emotiions and the heart.
|Reviewed by Sherry Heim
|One more reminder that we must never put things off until tomorrow, especially where friends and family are concerned. We have no idea when the last day will come. Heartful write, so very sad.