I'd Rather Die
by Barbara Lynn Terry
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Rated "PG" by the Author.
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This is a re-post and was written when I was very down on myself, and wished I could end it all. It is written in red to show that I should have written it in blood.
I'd Rather Die
Barbara Lynn Terry
I'd rather die,
Than live this lie
of being a man,
Cause you see I am,
A soul that is female,
And I wish my body could be,
the female that is my soul.
I am always told
That because my body is male,
That I must be a man,
When I know a girl I am.
I love to wear pretty dresses,
Have my hair in long curly tresses.
To play jump rope, jacks and hopscotch.
But because my body is male,
And they will not publish my tale,
And cannot love the man,
Who would accept me as I am,
I'd rather die,
Than live this constant lie.
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|Reviewed by Regis Auffray
|Be yourself, Barbie. God made you right? Love and peace,
|Reviewed by Michelle Close Mills
|Barbie, you are what God made you to be. And from all I've read of your postings, reviews, as well as your sweet encouraging comments to many of us on AD, you have a beautiful soul. I'm hoping that since this was written at a low spot, that you are now in a much better place. Be true to yourself dear. I know that I along with many others at AD are proud to know you. Blessings, Michelle|
|Reviewed by Gwen Dickerson
|Have courage Barbie, celebrate and embrace your loving nature. Go forth and enjoy your life!|
|Reviewed by Christy French
|Powerful! I read your bio. What a journey you have traveled! God speed and God bless as you proceed forward.
|Reviewed by Missy Cross
|Gut-wrenching and honest. I hope this finds you in a better place!|
|Reviewed by Tinka Boukes
|Keep the faith Barbie!!
And be the girl you want to be!!
|Reviewed by Rebecca Burns
|I am impressed that you shared such deep sadness. Although I can't say I know how you feel in your pain of being trapped in the wrong body I do know the feeling of wanting to die. You are here for a reason, don't let this world that we live in determine who you are going to be. I wish you all the best and hope that the world can see what a gem you are.
Love & Peace,
|Reviewed by Susan Sonnen
|I'm so glad that you stayed. Keep your faith and your strength. Though we've never met face to face, you are loved by many here.
|Reviewed by Karen Lynn Vidra, The Texas Tornado
I am glad that you found the strength to go on, even when you felt otherwise. That is the sign of a very strong person; you are most certainly that! A courageous write; very well done!
(((HUGS))) and much love, your friend in Tx., Karen Lynn. :)
|Reviewed by Sandie Angel
|Well, if you have told your friend who you are at the VERY BEGINNING of the friendship, then you cannot call it a "lie". The worse is when you two are good friends already, and then came the surprise, then it is like decieving and "emotional blackmailing."
I'd rather have a friend who is honest in the VERY BEGINNING of the friendship and leave no surprises.
But this is just my personal opinion.
Sandie May Angel a.k.a. Sandie Angel :o)
|Reviewed by Felix Perry
|I am glad you found the strength, courage and conviction to realize that martyrs really only hurt themselves, the pen is your weapon and your release, keep using it my friend.