There was something in my soul that was causing so much pain.
It was something that I’ve done, no one else to blame.
I’ve never told a single soul, for it hurt my very being.
I did it without thought; I did it blind not seeing.
I’ve asked God many times to forgive and heal my heart.
It’s one thing he won’t do, until my own forgiveness starts.
It happened many years ago and I thought it would go away.
But it always stayed with me from then to this very day.
How can I forgive myself when to me it was a sin?
How can I go on and grow without letting someone in?
It’s something I still can’t reveal for it tears my soul apart.
It’s something that will destroy me, destroy my very heart.
I asked for strength and the courage to be able to release,
All the guilt inside of me, so I can have some peace.
Then one night in prayer, the answer came so clear.
For it told me to forgive myself and keep my savior near.
I realized God couldn’t get through all this guilt and pain.
Until I turned it over to HIM, and released all self blame
Now, he freely healed me, for my slate was finally washed cleaned.
At last I have forgiveness and I have been redeemed.