I remember the flight of stairs
You know, the ones that you pushed her down
I remember her hair
Remember, the clump that was in your hands?
I remember you yelling out what you thought was her name
I don’t know, maybe you forgot
I remember your hand
The one you raised to slap her in her face
I remember when you balled up your hand into a fist
And she ran past you but you caught her and didn’t miss
I remember her tears
Because you had cheated on her
I remember that dark long jacket that she wore
That night when you kept yelling and you swore at her
You hit her, you kicked her, and you called my mother names
The woman that carried me and brought me into this world
Has now had her heart ripped out and you put it into flames!
I remember how in some ways you tried to be discrete
Did you really think you could fool me?
Cover-up on the bruise
Because my mother was the woman you chose to misuse?
I remember feeling like I could destroy you with my bare hands
But at such a young age how do you really come against the strength of a grown man?
I remember there wasn’t much that I could do
But I, did cry, just so you know
I remember all of the times when you would go
Get drunk and come home mad
It was my mother who had to deal with your inability to be a real man
that’s when I decided it was you I couldn’t stand!
I remember all that you did to her
I remember all of her pain
I remember you tried to suppress it all by buying gifts for her
But they certainly did nothing for my brain
My mother is a great woman
She deserves an even better man
I remember everything you did
I remember everything you said
So I vow tonight that in my head
I will be a better man
When I get older you will see
At five years of age
Do you see
What you’ve imparted into my memory?