Losing My Thoughts
by MaryGrace Patterson
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Rated "G" by the Author.
Print Save Become a Fan
This is what is happening to me. I have been having some memory problems and wanted to share what its like to live life having Alzheimers.
Some days are filled with sunshine,
Others are cloudy, damp and gray
I try hard to keep a happy face,
think of the good things in my life
Thats not always possibe,
When I forget from day to day
I'm loseing bits and pieces
of my Short Term Memories
A blank space is in my brain,
the thought is just not there
Its really kind of frustarting,
when I can't remember when or where
Did I do this,oh, I forgot to do that
Whens the last time I took a bath
The changes are suttle, But I
know whats happening
Alzheimers is robbing me of
my thoughts, a little at a time
Somtimes I cry, filled with dispair
I feel alone and lost
I wish it wasn't happening,
reality can be so cruel
Sometimes I feel like giving up,
how can I keep going on
I know I have to be brave
and try to remain so strong
Others are depending on me ,
to help them carry lifes load
I bow my head in prayer, let my
Lords light come shining through
He helps me to go on,
his love is forever true
Want to review or comment on this
Click here to login!
Need a FREE Reader Membership?
Click here for your Membership!
|Reviewed by Jon Willey
|Mary Grace, you still exhibit the grace of a determined fighter -- my heart and prayers are with -- your poetry remains unique, sincere and filled with powerful messages we may all learn much from -- peace and love my dear friend -- Jon Michael|
|Reviewed by Deborah Tornillo
|Very, very powerfully written. It brought tears to my eyes as I read it and thought to myself how you expressed exactly what my parents must have been feeling, but had no idea that they had Alzheimer's. God love you MaryGrace for coming into my life and sharing your deepest thoughts and feelings.
|Reviewed by Henry Stevens
|MaryGrace, so well written, a reflection of your strong will. Do keep writing when you can. You inspire the rest of us. s/henry|
|Reviewed by Poetess of The Soul Sheila G
|What a BEAUTIFUL and SAD poem MaryGrace, and WHY? is others depending on YOU, to help them carry life's load, it shouldn't be that way, for your time is of the essence and the frustration that you live with, Others should give you more PEACE (peace of mind too)
Then again, you may miss the attention!
My daughter goes through memory lapses too, and she is #30yrs. old, lives with my boyfr. and I, and always will, unless DMR. helps HER to expand her world!
She is on Seizure med's and Anti-psychotic med's and Panic Attacks and Axiety and depression too, all from being SHUNTED (having Spinal Meningitis when 2 mo's old and it causing HYDRO-Cephalic soon after) Her med's cause memory loss and the Seizures do too, till they become stable~!
I know how she feels, so I know how you feel!
Hang in and Believe god is always there for you, or through someone for YOU!
My heart is with you also!
Blessings, Peace and WARM Hugs, Purple_Passion_Pulsing, SHEExooo
|Reviewed by Debby Rosenberg
|i imagine having this disease would allow you a fine tuned perspective on every moment, that most others would take for granted...keep the faith|
|Reviewed by Patrick Granfors
|Mary, your verses tell me you have a lot left in you. As you know, my mom is in a similar situation, though obviously more advanced. Your insight has helped me and I hope mine will help you in the months to come. Love, Patrick|
|Reviewed by Lori Moore
|My heart goes out to you. Your bravery and creativity both shine.|
|Reviewed by Rose Rideout
|MaryGrace you are in my thoughts, heart and prayers. No matter what love will always be in your heart and that will always show through, no one or nothing can robb that. Stay strong dear.
Newfie Hugs, Rose
|Reviewed by Jeanette Cooper
|MaryGrace, my heart and prayers go out to you. God bless you, and may God be your companion through your trials.|
|Reviewed by Christine Alwin
|"He helps me to go on,
His love is forever true"...yes indeed!..you are in my thoughts and your poem makes me think of what we take for granted.
|Reviewed by jude forese
|remember to keep strong ...|
|Reviewed by Paul Berube
|Keep fighting it, Mary Grace. Read, write, do puzzles, crosswords; anything to keep exercising the mind. And, of course, pray, as we will all be praying right along with you.|
|Reviewed by Liana Margiva
|MAY GOD BLESS YOU, DEAR MaryGrace!!!!!!!!!!!!! Liana Margiva|
|Reviewed by John Flanagan
The pain is in your honesty and there's great honesty in the pain, you are not denying the reality of this cruelty. Brave brave soul!
|Reviewed by Karen Palumbo
|Oh MaryGrace, you bring me to tears and yes life can be cruel but you are strong and God is right there with you to help hold you up on those days you feel weak...
Be always safe,
|Reviewed by Karla Dorman, The StormSpinner
|(((HUGS))) love and prayer, MaryGrace - can't imagine. And I think an occasional slip of the memory is bad ... not even close. :(
|Reviewed by Karen Lynn Vidra, The Texas Tornado
|Heartbreaking reality; you are ever in my prayers, MG! I am so sorry!
(((HUGS))) and much love, your friend in Tx., Karen Lynn. :( >tears! <