The Above Photo From Happier Days....
14 months to the day that I laid my Leah to rest, so did I my little China tonight. His spirit was so strong, even as strong as hers… for she lasted longer than any doctor said she would and he…oh He lasted longer than any should suspect, but alas he gave up the ghost while cradled in my trembling arms.
I have just returned from amidst the pouring rain as the remnants of tropical storm Ida poured out her fury on this most sad occasion. I remember so well the joy He brought us in his brief tenure here on this earth. And after she left, he was my companion; he was my blessing to the tiny thread of sanity to which I so precariously hung. The final minutes tore my heart out as he plead with me with his tender eyes to make things right, yet now I have given unto him his place beside Leah’s miracle rose and I wept more tears than the rain did fall.
I heard his soft cry; begging me, and I came running to be by his side.
I held him just like I did my Leah until the last breath sweet he sighed.
Thus it is now in the pouring rain, thus in yet tender hearts pain.
I laid my precious China to rest beside Leah’s rose where he shall abide.
If God should allow little kitties in heaven, then it is my prayer that he is there.
I ask not much, but he once again feels the sweet gentleness of Leah’s soft touch.
Oh how he looked at me with his big green eyes, pleading, and wondering why.
And I too ask that question, why oh Lord must all the things I love have to die?
Oh his eyes how they looked to me for just some simple comfort to bring.
Much like the Crystal blue eyes when Leah’s last look said unto me; I will always love you.
If I thought before this house of mine was an empty and dark tomb.
How much more shall it be when I come home…come home to nothing but me?
I have always believed that you reap what you have sown.
Yet, I have cast nothing but seeds of love, and pray tell nothing but grief has grown.
I always thought that goodness begat goodness, yet it has only borne to me more strife.
Sometimes I now wonder…what the use of it is even in this moment being alive.
To some he is just a cat, and the connections you will never in a million years understand.
Yet I have always seen things in a different way, living creatures both big and small.
I see, and feel their spirits, and to everyone, and all things I have given my all.
So GOD, if you should let little kitties into your kingdom, then let this one with Leah abide.
For I watched in much pain and sorrow as he, like my Leah in the comfort of my arms slowly died.
Rest in peace sweet China…rest in Leah’s arms tonight.
J. Allen Wilson © 10/11/2009
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|Reviewed by Lois Christensen
|I felt the same when I lost my 12 year old cat Seashore, a very pretty gray girl with turquoise eyes. She is now in heaven with my hubby Thomas and hopefully I'll join them whever time comes for me to do that. I enjoyed this write and comforted me some in my sorrows too. I shall pass it on to family loved ones too.|
|Reviewed by m j hollingshead
|Rest in peace sweet China…rest in Leah’s arms tonight.
|Reviewed by Susan de Vegter
|Rest In Peace China and give Leah all the love still here awaiting her in Paradise. God Bless all animaals .
Blessings and love,
|Reviewed by j w (Reader)
I know tonight will be very painfull coming home with no one to greet you, but there will be someone...when you open your door, stop and listen, Jesus will be there, He will hold you in His arms, if you let him...I know, I prayed for Him to please be there since I couldn't be there for you...
There are no words to describe how my heart broke for you last night when I walked in and you were preparing China for burial, but I stayed strong...China now is with Leah. Just think how happy he is now.
I know you hate these cliques, but things will get better in time, yes they will and I will wait for you, I promise...
Forever and a day,
|Reviewed by Kate Burnside
|My words feel like dust in my pinched throat, Allen, as the pools of my eyes drink in the pain in your words and spill out their grief. But, as believe in the sovereignty of spirit and the connection of souls, please feel all of us here holding YOU in just the way you have held China and Leah. You're so right; physical embodiment does not inhibit the spirit of a being and we unite, soul to soul, whether human or animal. It is the place of deepest longing, communication and connection, as you know and say. A place where we are all one. Leah and China are but veiled from your eyes in the bodily forms for a brief instant while you here remain. But they are in you and about you always - now and evermore. Surely, Allen, herein have you known and borne to the very depths of sorrow, but the wheel will turn and you will one day soon be transported to the very heights of reunion and abundant joy, I'm sure of it. Standing with you in this time of very great need. bless you, Kate xx|
|Reviewed by Regis Auffray
|This is very sad and compelling. I extend my sympathy to you. Love and peace,
|Reviewed by Louisa Dobbins
|I am truly sorrowful about China but there is a place for the animals. He will be with Leah!|
|Reviewed by Karen Vanderlaan
|so heart breaking-a beautiful write though-such a tribute to China, Leah and your love|
|Reviewed by Karla Dorman, The StormSpinner
I am so sorry - even the Heavens cried - what a moving tribute to your little China ... so sad - if you need me, I'm here -
This got me: Why oh why do the things I love have to die? A question many ask .... I asked it when my Mom died, and again when my Daddy passed away. Agree with Peter: better to have loved and lost, than to not have loved at all.
(((HUGS))) love and continued prayer, Karla.
And this being Veteran's Day, thank YOU for YOUR service.
|Reviewed by Karen Lynn Vidra, The Texas Tornado
|God be with you during this sad time, Allen; you are ever in my prayers! I am sooo sorry!
(((HUGS))) and much love, your friend in Tx., Karen Lynn. :( *tears!*
Happy Veteran's Day; I did NOT forget!!
|Reviewed by Ed Matlack
|Goodbye Dear China, in life you knew only love of Leah & Al, now you will also know God's love...Ed|
|Reviewed by Michelle Kidwell Power In The Pen
|I am sorry for your loss, you have faced far to much loss lately, thank you for sharing these tributes with us, I am praying for you!
In Christs Love
|Reviewed by Peter Schlosser (Reader)
|This is indeed a most moving and touching piece of work. I have two little dogs who are also my soul-mates. I dread the day when I have to go through what you've experienced. But let me just say two things, which may help. I believe that when we pass, we will reconnect with the bonds of love we forged in this life and that your little companions will be waiting. Also, as far as the grief id sconcerned, as they say, better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. In the end, it's always worth it. Just let the natural cycle of grieving run its course. The storm, both inside and out, will blow over. There will be sun again. Take care.|