You knew, oh, you knew.
Cry, cry, cry, my nerve was scattered
all over that bathroom floor.
This girl is not me, my reflection whispered.
Oh, and you knew.
You wrapped me up in muffling fabric,
head to toe, front to back,
mustn't, shouldn't, show that skin.
Making you safe.
You closed my mouth with petulance,
time and time and time again,
brains not for showing, not for sharing.
Making you smart.
Knew why the hesitance with friends.
Mustn't hug, smile, laugh, touch.
Mustn't. Sends a message.
Making you happy.
And maybe I knew, too.
What a girl will do for a man.
Stupid girl. Stupid man.
Knowledge hard won.