Every night the same old fear
Praying that he would not come near.
I closed my eyes praying he would leave
The horror was too painful for me to believe.
For eight years he continued on
I cried and begged for him to stop
But he insisted it was not wrong.
He claimed that since he made me it was his right
So he did this every night.
It seemed like suicide was the only way out
No one could hear my screams and shouts.
After those nights I just wanted to die
He said he would stop, but that was a lie.
Eventually he would leave
and I would cry myself to sleep
No one would understand, this was a secret I had to keep.