from book, 'From Darkness to Light'
Dr Audrey Coatesworth
The shadows my only comfort
In the dark, long hours alone
Unable to breath and frightened
I face the vast unknown
Shall I reach the morning?
Will I see the daybreak's light
Or will I go to sleep for ever during this dreadful night?
Many others have walked this path
The pain severe, with fear
If I get through each moment
Then finality will come near
Either the spasm will ease away
Or I shall not see the dawn
I do not know my dying day as I knew not when to be born
Does it really matter?
Just one more mouth to feed
On this planet, mother earth,
There are many ones in need
But somehow, it is important
To try hard, keep travelling on
But at least the past is over, what has gone before is done
When eventually I face whoever
And whenever that time may be
I shall not ‘cross’ myself or
Bend down upon one knee.
No, I shall stand fair and square
Look him in the eyes, and say
'I tried so hard, I hoped to win, but
I was just not strong enough today!'
Poem is copyright A Coatesworth