Three Months Ago
by MaryGrace Patterson
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Rated "G" by the Author.
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Thoughts about my husband and the life we once had together.
Three months ago you were alive and with me. We talked about things we wanted to do this summer and that we'd go out to dinner on my birthday. You even said you might consider going back to Vermont again. I think you said that to placate me, never the less, it made me happy.
I saw that you were not able to do the things you once did, yet I urged you to try to fix a few things and you did. I could see the satisfaction in your eyes, and I noticed the slowness in your walk.
We talked about most of our children and the direction their lives had taken. As days went by, you took the time to have special talks with some of them and gave them advise on different aspects of life. I wonder if you had a premonition of something happening and you said nothing to me.
I remember the night we laid in our bed and talked about dieing and how we would try to cope with it's harsh realities. Little did I realize it would happen so soon. I wish with all my heart, it never had.
I can do nothing to bring you back and all I have left are memories of your smile, your touch, our love! I do not have you though and there is no "US"!
The loneliness I feel is overwhelming and all consuming. I try to do the best I can to go on, but it's so hard. Sometimes I feel like I can't do it any more! Writing my thoughts and feelings helps to releave the anguish and pain I feel.
Now I will go to bed and dream sweet dreams of the life we once shared and pretend you are here with me.
I love you and miss you with all my heart.†††
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|Reviewed by Lois Christensen
|I surely know the feeling, dream sweet dreams and pretend like you do also. it's hard, gets a little easier with time, but not much with me yet, 5 years Aug...love, Lois|
|Reviewed by Liana Margiva
|Dear MaryGrace!!!! This is very sad... MAY GOD HELP YOU EVERY DAY OF YOUR LONG LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Liana Margiva|
|Reviewed by Joyce Bell
|"...SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE I CAN'T DO IT ANY MORE..." THOUGH SUCH TIMES 'SEEMS LIKE' THE WORSE TIMES, THEY ARE NOT. FOR THESE TIMES ARE THE TIMES WHEN WE REALIZE SOMETHING; JESUS IS CARRYING US. THE WORD OF GOD SAYS, 'WHEN WE ARE WEAK, THEN...HE IS STRONG'. WE DON'T REALIZE HOW STRONG HE IS, REALLY, UNTIL WE GET TO A PLACE WHERE WE CAN'T DO IT ANYMORE AND WE ALLOW HIM TO DO IT ALL. YOU ARE BEING KEPT AND STRENGTHENED BY THE HEAVEN'S BEST. IN FACT, ITS IRONIC; YOU AND RICHARD BOTH OF BEING KEPT BY HEAVEN'S BEST; RICHARD-SAFE IN HIS ARMS IN HEAVEN AND YOU-SAFE IN ARMS ON EARTH. GOD BLESS YOU AS YOU 'PRESS ON' THROUGH THE POWER OF ALMIGHTY GOD IN YOUR LIFE. THANKS FOR SHARING, MARYGRACE. MUCH LOVE, BLESSINGS AND A CONTINUED ABUNDANCE OF FAITH...OVERFLOWING. JOYCE * HIS INSPIRATIONS|
|Reviewed by Linda Hill
I am so sorry about your dear husband. May God comfort and give you peace of mind. There will come a day when you wake up and smell the roses again. God bless you.
Many blessings and love,
|Reviewed by Karen Lynn Vidra, The Texas Tornado
|(((HUGS))) and prayers!
Love, your friend in Texas, Karen Lynn. :(
|Reviewed by Ronald Hull
|This is so sad. But like you wrote, writing about it helps relieve the sorrow.