im used to the darkness by now
though i still cannot surmise
why i never can confess
my addiction to lonliness
i fall to my knees and pray
to a god i might accept someday
and hope against reason that somehow
the sun will refuse to rise

i dread the coming of the light
that exposes every inch of sin
and makes me feel dirty inside
something in my heart has died
though i still refuse to cry
maybe one day i won't have to wonder why
things are never all right
and i can face the sun again

my sanity is but a doubt
sacrificed like a pawn
in this horrid game of existence
its nothing but a music box dance
round and round in endless monotony
all i can do is face my reality
and set out
into the sanguine dawn

--faith marie ambrosia