So down today,
My world rather dark
Darker than it’s ever been,
And I wonder,
If I shall ever see the light again…

Discovered some truths yesterday,
And you know how hard that can be,
To face what others finally find the courage to say,
Faced a few of my own too,
And now I know what I must do…

I was safe once,
Happy enough,
If happiness means not being tough
Enough to play the game,
Hiding behind my name,
Using my past to feed the future,
But the line became a blur…

I crossed a line I couldn’t see,
Pretending something that would never be,
That I,
Dark creature of the night,
Could try to live in your world of light…

But now I got it right,
For someone said to me,
I must learn to be like you,
Enjoy the dark and be at peace…

Ah...
One never learns to enjoy the dark,
One endures, survives, hides,
Never enjoys the ebony tides,
That washes across one’s soul…

But now and again,
Soft beings of light,
Traverse near enough
To make one smile,
Then they flutter away once again,
Leaving us shadows alone in the night…

You may call to me,
And pretend to see,
This thing you call a great mystery,
But now the truth lies between us
Like a bridge we can never cross,
Covering a chasm that makes me sway dizzily,
As I stand on the rim,
Of this truth you revealed to me…

Don’t be sad,
It wasn’t all bad,
And the truth is I don’t accept your pity,
Your remorse,
It was my choice to believe,
Your "truths" that made me leave…

I have returned to the beginning again,
And you to your soft lighted world my friend,
Leaving me to dwell,
In my own private hell,
And they are my demons to fight,
Never yours in your world of light,
We fight different battles,
And though my sword is rusted and torn,
It swings still,
When I find the will…

So sit back in your ivory tower,
And watch and dream of power,
Leave us natives to our earthly whims,
I shall never climb that mountain again…

I know now where I belong,
Here with the weak,
Not the strong…
For we have a bond,
These children and I,
Where I wipe the tears from their eyes,
Set them on the path again…

Perhaps I shall never have a true friend,
But if I leave my dark place where I dwell,
How shall I help others escape from their hell?
So much nicer here I see,
Where people like you will never find me…

So it is my choice to stay,
Your tears of sorrow you can wipe away,
It’s not like our friendship was real anyway…
So to you who cry and feel grief for me,
I want you see there is no need to be…

For I have found my peace,
Here in the shadows of my trees,
Where there is no one here but me,
For at last it is understood,
Alas,
Life is,
What it is…