In Love Or Not In Love
I heard real love comes only once in a lifetime.
Perhaps I've already missed that chance,
Yet perhaps I'm still waiting
For my heart to response to another smile.
I thought I found that someone that I loved.
He was honest and kind in heart,
Yet something in my heart told me it wasn't right,
Like eating ice-cream with a knife.
Yet I went ahead and thought I was in love,
Somehow being with him I was happy.
Still I was always reminded
In values we stood on each end of the pole.
At the end I thought I didnít deserve him, and I left.
At the end I thought I deserve better still,
The one that I give my whole heart,
The one who values the thing I hold dear.
So tonight when you asked me
Who did I love, or whose heart got mine,
I said frankly I never knew love,
Yet to pick one from all men I knew,
I would pick him, yes him,
The one I first opened up to.
No, it wasn't my first boyfriend.
It was farther back then,
I was only in grade ten,
Didnít know that was called puppy love.
Because of him I argued with my parents.
My parents saw him through but I didnít.
They hated me to do things with him.
I remembered when I went high school prom
With him, my father was so mad
That he swore not to talk with me again.
Now I think back, I was silly.
I was nothing to him, and time made no changes.
I am nothing to him, yet it doesnít matter anymore.
He hurt me once, but only once.
©May 30, 2003