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by Retta (Reindeer) Mckenzie

Wednesday, November 05, 2003

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They called him my father,
But he wasn’t really,
Not a true father,
As fathers go,
Just a man,
I never really got to know,
Until a few years before he died,
Small wonder I never cried,
When they told me,
My heart was cold...
I wondered about that,
Why I didn’t feel a thing,
Wondered what it could mean,
Was I that bad?
That I didn’t get sad?

This man I never knew died,
I knew his birthday,
I knew he liked chocolate ice milk,
Not ice-cream,
Too rich for his old blood,
And Dr. Pepper,
This being the sum
Of the memories I have…

I remember he slept a lot,
When he was home,
And beat my mother,
Though he never broke a bone…

He always stood apart,
Looking at us like aliens,
As though we spoke another language,
He could never understand…

I remember where I was,
When they told me he had died,
And I waited for some feeling,
To cross my mind,

But there was nothing.
Just a sudden scent of Old Spice,
And whiskey hung in the air,
Then dissipated,
I looked around,
But there was nothing there…

I called my sister,
To tell her the news,
She didn’t say a word,
Then softly whispered into the phone,
“I can’t cry…”

I whispered back,
“Neither can I…”

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Reviewed by Rodd Jokre 2/10/2004
Wow, this one is a good one... makes a ton of sense...
Good write.

Reviewed by Marilyn Seray 11/10/2003
Reindeer, this broke my heart. You've done an outstanding job on this one
Reviewed by Crystal-Rain Love 11/10/2003
Such a sad piece.......grips you right in the chest.
Reviewed by Jim Dunlap 11/7/2003
This is chlling indeed. Brings back memories I don't care to dwell on. I did a poem somewhat like it once but nobody liked it, so I don't have it any more. At least you are laying your ghosts through your writing.
Reviewed by Regis Auffray 11/7/2003
Soul-wrenching with genuine emotions and much meaning. Well expressed.
Reviewed by Simon Thurlow (Reader) 11/7/2003
Painful memeories often have the effect of numbing ones emotions. Just because you did not physically cry does not mean that you did not cry. Besides, from the words you use here it sounds like it was more a relief !!
Beautiful, but haunting write
Reviewed by Mark Rockeymoore 11/7/2003
this reads like catharsis in motion...coming to terms with our childhoods is one of the most difficult things we have to do as human beings. to be able to integrate those feelings and impressions and move on, better for the integration, is a task that most do not even attempt, because of the difficulty. giving voice to these sentiments is a step along the journey...
Reviewed by La Belle Rouge (Reader) 11/7/2003
So painful to read, I'm so sorry you never had his cherishing love. A powerful poem.
Reviewed by ya mama (Reader) 11/6/2003
a sad poem, but well crafted.
Reviewed by E T Waldron 11/6/2003
So wistful! An excellent write, glad yu can get it out.The numbness you felt is understandable Reindeer!
Don't be too hard on yourself,and don't bury deep feelings to come back to haunt you. There's nothing wrong with feeling nothing about someone who never recognized you.
Reviewed by Trixie Love 11/6/2003
Oh Retta,
This simply broke my heart...

Written so well...

Trixie :)
Reviewed by - - - - - TRASK 11/6/2003
I Look . My Father May He Rot in Hell!

Know Well Your Pain, Still Your Reason Why You Are Here To Find It Out Tis All That's IMPORTANT!

Reviewed by Michelle Kidwell Power In The Pen 11/6/2003
((((((((((Reindeer)))))))))))) This was a difficult read because of the subject matter...
God Bless
Reviewed by Sanil nath (Reader) 11/6/2003
Excellent write
Made me little sad reading it ...
But this was indeed marvellous one ...........
Reviewed by Mitzi Jackson 11/5/2003
sad reality that gets more like real everyday
wonderful poem
Reviewed by George MacLean Akurunwa 11/5/2003
A deeply touching and well written piece.
Reviewed by Bhuwan Thapaliya 11/5/2003
sad but well expressed write!!!!
Reviewed by T. Emilie Dybevik (Reader) 11/5/2003

Just come here and let me give you a big hug. This made my eyes glassy.

You are an excellent poet in every way. This was easy to read, flowed nicely and ripped right into the core of my emotions.

Thank You,
Teresa Emilie
Reviewed by Kate Clifford 11/5/2003
A sad write that speaks volumes! Hugs.
Reviewed by William Bonilla 11/5/2003
Sad and heartfelt still a wonderful write
if the tears are not there
count your blessing you are,
to remember why.

Reviewed by Tinka Boukes 11/5/2003
Very sad and heartfelt Retta!!

Love Tinka
Reviewed by Christine Morell 11/5/2003
So sad and heartfelt. Beautiful, Reindeer
Reviewed by Lisa Hilbers 11/5/2003
Retta, One has to deal with emotions the best way they can. Sometimes tears aren't what we need to do. Other times,,relief and rest is more called for.
You've got a wonderful heart. Embrace your Sister,,for it is she that you need. Lisa
Reviewed by Mr. Ed 11/5/2003
Extremely sad, Reindeer. Your writing says it all. Peace.
Reviewed by Woman Words (Reader) 11/5/2003
very moving piece of work
Reviewed by Karen Lynn Vidra, The Texas Tornado 11/5/2003
(((((((((REINDEER)))))))))) >tears < love, your friend in texas, karen lynn. :(
Reviewed by Calendula Petal (Reader) 11/5/2003
a very moving piece. I know I would have felt exactly the same.
Reviewed by Evelyn Simon 11/5/2003
This was so sad, but well written. It generated alot of energy.
Wonderful. :)
Reviewed by J. Pajot 11/5/2003
Emotionally draining...sad but well written.
Reviewed by Tami Ryan 11/5/2003

I'm not the least bit ashamed to tell you that I'm crying as I type, as this has touched me at the very core.

My father has not been well for some time, and I have struggled with the thoughts of how I will deal with my emotions when he dies. (If you read some of my work, perhaps you'll understand.)

This write provokes extreme emotion within. Thanks so much for this write.

Hugs to you,
Reviewed by Carmen Ruggero 11/5/2003
Chilling, is the only word that comes to mind. This is so well expressed, it left me cold. Thank you.

Reviewed by Jerry Bolton (Reader) 11/5/2003
Aww, but you and your sister had already cried quite enough tears before then I believe.
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