Join | Login  

     Popular! Books, Stories, Articles, Poetry
Where Authors and Readers come together!


Featured Authors:  Sandi Schraut, iWilliam Pusey, iHank Nuwer, ialex canton-dutari, iBrad Bathgate, iRosemarie Skaine, iBarbara Henry, i

  Home > Memoir > Stories
Popular: Books, Stories, Articles, Poetry     

Deborah Ann Tornillo

· Become a Fan
· Contact me
· Books
· Poetry
· News
· Stories
· 493 Titles
· 1,579 Reviews
· Save to My Library
· Share with Friends!
Member Since: Jun, 2009

Deborah Ann Tornillo, click here to update your pages on AuthorsDen.

Featured Book
When Horses Had Wings
by Diana Estill

A young mother tries to escape her rural Texas environment and her violent, garbage-collecting husband...  
BookAds by Silver
Gold and Platinum Members

Featured Book
Fresh Frozen (hardcover and eBook )
by Darden North

In Darden North's FRESH FROZEN, human reproductive tissue becomes a murderous commodity. FRESH FROZEN (hardcover, October 2008) is the third thriller by award-winning aut..  
BookAds by Silver
Gold and Platinum Members

   Recent stories by Deborah Ann Tornillo
· Grief In Slow Motion
· A Gift To You
· Heaven
· Thanksgiving - Why I'm Thankful
· Every 70 Seconds....
· Wild Horses
· The Beast
· Rewards of a Caregiver
· Thanksgiving
· Grief - An Ongoing Journey
· Fear, Hope and Faith
· A Love Without End
           >> View all 14

Share    Print  Save   Become a Fan

Books and Prayers
By Deborah Ann Tornillo
Saturday, July 18, 2009

Rated "G" by the Author.

Share this with your friends on FaceBook

Taking care of parents, both diagnosed with Alzheimer's and overcoming my fears.

When I was taking care of my parents, whom were both diagnosed with Alzheimer’s, I prayed daily for God’s guidance. Through prayer I knew that no matter how bad or how difficult things became God would carry me through it. I read many books on the subject of Alzheimer’s. I read many books on the subject of Caregiving and I read many books on the subject of Dying. I was convinced I was an expert on the subject matter of Alzheimer’s, Caregiving and Dying and no matter what obstacle I confronted I would be able to overcome it.

The reality for me was overcoming my fear of watching my parents die. Little did I realize they would die just 36 Days Apart of each other. I remember talking with family and friends about my fear of death and being alone in the room with Mom and Dad when they die. I did not want my parents to feel my fear, because I did not want to burden them with my pain.

My determination of being present with both of them when they die was deeply seeded inside of me. But, I needed to overcome the fear! I prayed daily to God to help me overcome that fear. I voiced my desire to Hospice that I wanted to be present when my parents passed. Hospice turned to me and told me “it’s not always your choice.” Many weeks prior to my father’s passing I would wake every night at exactly 3:33. I didn’t understand why I was waking at this time, until the phone call came that night at exactly 3:33 telling me that my father had passed. I didn’t get to be with my father when he passed. He didn’t want me there. He sensed my fear and as a father, who always protects his children, he didn’t want me to see him die. I remember when I was saying my “goodbyes” to him, there was one promise that I made him. I promised him that I would be by my mother’s side, holding her hand until the very end. I promised him that I would not let her die alone.

I prayed constantly to God to give me the strength and courage, and to erase all fear inside of me when my mother passed. I had made a promise to my father, and I was determined to keep it. You can read all the books in the world and talk to all the people in the world about dying, but the only one thing that will keep you strong and give you courage to see it through is God. God answered my prayers, I held my mother’s hand the day she passed, I held her hand, never to let go of her, never to forget her, to always keep her close to me in my heart. That day I kept my promise to Dad and on that day God held my hand.

Deborah Tornillo




       Web Site: Deborah Tornillo

Want to review or comment on this short story?
Click here to login!

Need a FREE Reader Membership?
Click here for your Membership!

Books by
Deborah Ann Tornillo

36 Days Apart

Buy Options
Amazon, Barnes & Noble, more..

bipolar bare by carlton davis

A memoir of my life's journey with mental illness..  
Featured BookAds by Silver
Gold and Platinum Members

Life goes out of style by Joe Bueno

A first generation American, who overcame the poverty and tragedy of childhood to forge a brighter path for himself and his three daughters...  
Featured BookAds by Silver
Gold and Platinum Members

Authors alphabetically: A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z

Featured Authors | New to AuthorsDen? | Add AuthorsDen to your Site
Share AD with your friends | Need Help? | About us

Problem with this page?   Report it to AuthorsDen
AuthorsDen, Inc. All rights reserved.