We make decisions all day..
Whether to go to work or call in sick,
whether to go out clubbing or take in a movie at home,
but there comes a time even when you've made decisions all ur life..you just don't know what to do...

It’s the day of my wedding…..

Supposedly it’s suppose to be the happiest day of my life,i don’t think that’s quite the fact right now…

I wonder why many brides-to-be get all excited, and keep saying “the best day of my life”…mhhm..The night of my life was yesterday when my girlfriends threw me a Bachelorette Party.It was at the famous executive strip club “G-Spot”….WOW!now that was some party and sure as hell won’t forget….anyhow,

Am still wondering why brides to-be get all worked up and excited for nothing in particular.It aint like it’s going to be your first time together anyway…it’s a life sentence for God’s sake…mh!!

**So am sitting here in the church’s dressing room trying to figure out if i should go ahead or find a way out of this mess.Damn !now am thinking of how much time and money other people have put into it …nah,….but no i don’t care all that matters is that am happy…the rest they’ll get over it…but what about him?….hmmm!

Knock!Knock!Knock!…I heard the door.

“Come in”

“Girl!what you doing still not dressed?the photographer is here” said Kimana,my best friend who is my maid of honor looking glamorous in the gold long strapless dress.

“Am not feeling well” I lied while holding my stomach trying to prove a point.

“Come on…”she almost started whinning.”It must be the all the booze you had yesterday”…as she patted my shoulder.

I wish i could tell her,I just wished I could cry on her shoulder and tell her everything…but…i have learnt to trust no one but myself.

“Yeah it must be” as I turned and looked at myself in the mirror.What a lier!…..It’s more than the booze honey.

“Let me go get everyone together,i’ll be back to get you” she left the room.

The clock is ticking….

I either have to get my self ready or face the horror.

It’s time to make some last minute evaluation….although this isn’t quite the right place and time but the decision i am going to take is very critical.

He lies, so do I.

He cheated, so did I.

He be trippin’ sometimes, so do I.

He tends to be a bug-a-boo at times, so am I.

However he gives me good loving and i give him the same.

Knock!Knock!…it was the door again.

“Yes”

“I hope your…..umm…what’s wrong?”she was puzzled.

“You know what?”as she picked up my dress from the chair and handed it to me.

“You don’t have to do this if you got doubts,however it might be cold feet sweety..”

I nodded while putting the dress on..

“Just listen to your heart dear.”as she sat on the chair looking exhausted.

Now this Heifer just had to spoil the moment..i was putting my dress on..now use my heart?girl if i use my heart i will walk out of here and go away with ,”Tango” the stripper I meet last night at the strip joint.

Lately i have learnt the best decision you can make is with your head not the heart.

Finaly am here trying to get a quick solution..for a matter which definetly needs more than a few seconds to think about.

Listen to My Heart or My Head?

Heart?……

Head?……

Oh am confused….

Tick!….Tick!……Tick!…….Tick!……

“Tell the photographer to go” I said calmly.

“WHAT!”she screamed shocked and almost fell off the chair. “how could..”before she continued nagging..

“Tell him to go outside,aren’t we suppose to take a photo outside?”as I pulled my dress down properly.

“Oh okay”..she let out a sigh of relief.

“Here zip my dress for me” I moved towards her.”You are making the right decision” as she closed my zip..As if she knew what was right for me she couldn’t get her own life right and now talking about whats right..anyway..I guess i did make the right decision not telling her,I was about to tell her yesterday but i had made some last minute changes…..since she is also my husband -to-be’s sister.

Knock!Knock!Knock!….

“Come in” we said in unison.

“Everyone is waiting for Bride to be” my sister chuckled at the whole idea,of me getting married that is….

“Am done,am coming out.”

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