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It has been over a month since you left me, having departed from my life. I have suffered terribly all this time, unable to sleep at night, and during the day I have not known where to run from my pain, which follows me everywhere.
I have tried to forget you, as you asked me to, but the sleepless nights laughed at my efforts. Like intimate friends, they won’t release me from their embrace, not for a fleeting moment. I am so dear to them now, now I myself am loved, not by you, but by my sleepless nights.
Even now, as I am writing these lines, they are here beside me. It is night outside. Happy people are sleeping peacefully, while others are writing useless letters.
I am sorry, my love, but I can not do you this favor. For the first time, I cannot comply, and refuse to forget you. What could I do when you wouldn’t allow me to say your name? I will never utter it again, but I will keep writing letters that you won’t get. They will be read by those who don’t sleep at night.
In those letters, you will still be mine, mine only, loving me as long as I wish, missing me like before, while I pretend not to care, although you know only too well how badly I need you.
Here’s my first letter.
How are you doing without me? Are you getting along well with the one you love? Do you love her the way I love you? Do you feel the same sweetness in her lips I felt in yours when you kissed me? Has your heart ever missed a beat when you put your arms around her?
If you love her truly, then you should be able to understand how happy I was with you. Only, you really don’t love anyone, my darling.
You are jealous of my power to love you so much. You have invented something you have no clue about, uttering different names every time. Forgive me, my love, but I do remember every single word you said. Regardless, I do not wish you to be unloved, it is my destiny and my cross to bear, and may you never get to feel this pain.
I am writing these lines late at night, when every living creature is resting peacefully. Who are you with now, my love? Do you have any idea how those who don’t sleep at night really feel? Of course, you have an unlimited choice of who to love and who to hate, but what am I to do, the one who has none, the one who is missing you so much at night?
Today, I lost it. I took advantage of the fact that no one could see me and cried out at the top of my voice, ‘’Oh, Almighty, please stop him, don’t let him slip away! He has no clue what he is doing! Oh, mighty Wind, please carry his brutal words away from me. Howl, bellow, do what you want, but may my ears hear but you! My Lord, please take away my memory, so I may forget the cynicism of his words! For he will be back, since all living matter is drawn to warmth, but I am afraid he won’t find me among the living. So, Heavens and Wind, stop him from leaving, lest you weep over me!”
And the wind howled, chasing sand and fallen leaves, carrying them away and oblivious to my plea. And the heavens frowned, covering itself with clouds, spilling tears of rain upon the land.
My love, I am looking into your darling eyes and behold in them a woman not unlike myself, who is missing you sorely and is loving you deeply. Tell me, love, do you recall this woman, or have you forever erased her from your memory?
I hear roosters shriek, vainly trying to wake me up. Silly birds, they have no idea how badly I wanted them to start and chase away my sleepless night!
Again Ms. Insomnia knocks on my door, smiling. ‘’ Come in, come in, girlfriend, you are my closest friend after Him. You won’t leave me alone anyway, so why not let you in voluntarily. “ Perhaps, you’ll have mercy on me and leave early.’’
But Insomnia roared with hearty laughter, taking away my last hope of a good night sleep. ‘’Well, now tell me, dear, why you fancied me?” I asked.
She shrugged. “ People hate me, chase me away. I saw you cry as I was passing by, so I figured, here’s a place I can stay the night.’’
I embraced her tightly, commiserating with her, for the first time in my life welcoming an unwanted guest. ‘’Insomnia, dear, could you do me a favor? Could you visit my loved one and tell him how miserable I am without him?”
She dashed out through the closed window, but was back almost instantly, declaring, ‘’He is sound asleep, wrapped around his girlfriend. I am loathed by happy people, only the lonesome and miserable are my true and eternal friends. So, don’t you worry, dear, I will never abandon you!”
And I cried bitterly, ‘’ Sleepless nights, cruel nights, get out of my life! Leave me for good like he left me, I want to sleep for eternity!”
By Liana Margiva.
Translated from Russian by Anatol Kardiukov.
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|Reviewed by Joyce Bell
|YOU ARE A MAGNIFICENT STORY TELLER! THIS WORK IS SUPERB. THANKS FOR SHARING AND GOD BLESS YOU. LOVE, JOYCE * HIS INSPIRATIONS|
|Reviewed by Inspire Hope
|Very touching indeed Liana! What an excellent story Teller
you are! With gifts so rare that you share so passionately,
thank you and may God continue to bless and prosper you!
If I did not tell you Liana Happy New Year! Blessings!
|Reviewed by A Serviceable Villain
Superb writing - splendid!!
|Reviewed by Vesna Perkovic
|Brilliant work..just splendid!
Indeed a well-known scenario..
|Reviewed by hussein kodary (Reader)
|Reviewed by Andre Bendavi ben-YEHU
|On this Tuesday (Tius’s Day = Ares) Mars celebrated by the Roman-Greek Empire in all Provinces$ of its$ political realms$, I salute You, Author-Poet Liana Margiva.
It is a privilege and honor to appreciate Your creative works.
"Sleepless Nights" is a touching story.
May the light of this day show You the greatness and uniqueness of Your soul.
Andre Emmanuel Bendavi ben-YEHU