I was a faithful wife---all 23 years of our marriage. I never even lusted after another man in my heart. My momma said thinking about sex with another man other than your husband was wrong and sinful and I would surely go to hell if I did.
So my question is, if I was so faithful why wasn’t my husband? Well, he’s my ex husband now so I guess the question is moot. But I’ll tell you what he said to me before he packed his bags and left. He told me I didn’t have what it took to please him sexually. He said I never did but he married me anyway because I was a “good girl” and he was hoping one day I would break out of my cooped-up, sexually timid shell and go buck wild. Of course, he never told me that until the day he left.
For months I was heart-broken. How could the man of my dreams be blind-sided by an overwhelming need to have sex? I thought our relationship was built on a spiritual love that transcended the physical realm. Although I admit I didn't enjoy sex all that much, I obliged most of the time because I wanted so desperately to please my husband. It obviously wasn’t good enough.
After I decided I wasn’t going to be miserable about the break-up anymore, I decided to make a change. That was five years ago. Now let me tell you what I’ve been doing since then…..
Stay tuned for another excerpt from my upcoming “fiction” book Sex Tales of a Baby Boomer Diva.