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I felt numb, but knew I had to find a way to break through and reach God. I realized I did not want to stay here , no matter how I felt towards Amonyion. I could not give God up for anything. I always knew He was my life, and I had to make it known. I went on my knees and began to pray . It was very hard, I felt no response. However, I knew no matter how long or hard, I had to continue until God knew I meant it.
Amonyion came in while I was still praying. He came and scooped me up off the floor and said " I know what happened!"I also know what you need, and it isn't wasting time on your knees. He won't hear you! I slapped him and screamed "Let go of me, I don't choose you, I hate you!." To my surprise he laughed and threw me on the bed, and began to undress me. I tried with all my strength to resist him , but it seemed to only stir his passions more.
Afterward, I cried, at my weakness. I had once again let my passions run wild. Amonyion knew he was my weakness. He whispered " Come into my arms darling, you are a very exciting and wonderful lover. You have natural passions that should never be bottled up. I've never been more satisfied.Don't fight our love. I'll make you very happy, give you everything you want."
I pulled away and jumped out of bed, rushed into the bathroom. I got in the shower, and cried my heart out letting the water blend with my tears, hoping to wash away the guilt I felt, at disappointing God again, with my weak will. I couldn't understand how I could have the love of Amonyion who was on Satans side, but not of Ari who at least tried to be a friend of God's. Or did he?
When I returned to the bedroom dressed, Amonyion was also up and dressed. He said in a somewhat cold voice" It will take time but you'll see eventually, that we are meant to be. Be aware that you are being watched, so don't do anything foolish." He started for the door, but I stopped him. "
Amonyion, you must listen to me! I'm never going to be happy with you, and I will do everything in my power to leave you. Yes, I love you and I lose myself when you're near. You know that because it' s a spell that you have me under. I don't know why God won't help me break that spell, but I will try with all my heart and soul to get out from under it. God has always been first in my life and I won't let you or anyone keep Him from me."
His face darkened and became like stone, he pushed me aside, and said as he left,"You fool, can't you get it in your head, He's the one keeping Himself from you , no one else!" The door closed, and I stood in total silence ,realizing what he had said was true . It was my fault, all of it, I had pushed God to the back burners in my obsession giving Ari top priority. I went back on my knees and began a prayer vigil, unlike any I had ever done before. I was fighting for my soul.
Six months passed in which I never stopped praying, and as I became stronger and resisted Amonyion, his passion grew and he began to treat me with more respect. I was completely surprised when he allowed me to pray in front of him. I asked God to please tell me what was happening. I knew something was changing, and I had a hope, I thought had been lost, and I knew the Spirit was again moving within me.
Finally the day came when God spoke to me through the Spirit once again. He said it was his plan to bring both me and Ari back to His grace. He had been working on Amonyion through me. This had been His plan. I asked why, but he said that answer would have to wait until the plan was consummated.
In the meantime I was to continue in prayer, and in helping Amonyion as his eyes became reopened to God' s truth. Amonyion as Ari, had been a mighty instrument of God, but he couldn't let go of his obsession with the occult. God demands full obedience. To err or to sin is something, we all do, but to live in blind rebellion to God's will, giving power to the occult , instead of to God is direct opposition to God's will. He told me I would have help from the Spirit with Amonyion.
End Part Five
It was two months later and Amonyion and I were in bed. for the first time he did not want to have sex, but started to talk of other things. "I had some problems today with one of the angels. He accused me of having changed since I married you, and said everyone noticed it."
I asked "Ari what kind of changes did he say?"
" One thing he said, I was always distracted, and seemed to have lost my strength. I couldn't answer him, which proved his point. Any other time I would have slapped him and sent him to the pit for his effrontery!"
"Oh Ari, don't you see the Spirit is working in you again!."
"I did send him for punishment , so don't think I've changed that much. I feel no spirit, rather an emptiness I hadn't felt before."
"Don't you see, Satan's indwelling that controls you, is being replaced by God's Spirit. Don't fight it! I was very excited and my voice had risen.
Amonyion looked at me and said, "That's the most feeling I've seen you display in months. My dear, you can't really believe that God is going to do some work with me after I have been serving His arch enemy Satan for all these years.
That is just a dream on your part."I surprised him by hugging him, I kissed his brow and said, " God has made it known to me that He will work His will in both our lives. Yes, darling in yours too. I don't know why yet, but He said we'd know when the plan was completed."Ari, got up, and walked around the room. I stayed still and quiet.
He came and stood next to the bed looking down at me and said in a hushed voice " Do you really believe God will restore me? I'm sure he will you, but you don't know the deeds I've done these past few years."
I opened my arms to him and he knelt by the side of the bed,and we embraced each other."Ari, please listen carefully. God wants you back and you are already forgiven if you accept it. The spirit will guide us and we will work for God doing whatever He asks of us. Unlike here, I will do whatever you want me to. I will not try to influence you. When you have the same Spirit that I have, I can trust you as the head of the house as you are meant to be. If our first love belongs to God, then we can have the relationship we were meant to have."
"Elitha it sounds too good to be true , and what do you suppose Satan is going to do? I'm surprised he isn't here right now telling us how things really are. You don't realize his power."
"Ari, you know the power he has is there only because we give it to him. Whereas with God, His power surpasses all things. He already has Satan restrained, if we are willing to leave here, and obey God's will without rebellion."
It took six more weeks until Ari, was ready to leave and become renewed by God. I too would have to go through renewal. We knelt together to appeal to God to take us back to wherever He wanted us to go. We prayed for an hour , before the Spirit spoke to us. He told us He would cast a sleep over the entire compound. Then we must leave quickly taking nothing with us, when we got to the surface, a boat would be waiting to pick us up and take us to our new home. We were to leave in half an hour.
The time came to leave the cave ,and go out into the grotto where we would use Ari's sub to get to the surface. Just before we left there was a horrendous growl and a wall of fire passed us within an eyelash, we felt singed, but we got into the sub and took off in seconds.
Eight months have gone by,I live in the mountains near a beautiful lake. I took over a large compound the Lord had chosen for me, which is used to house adults and children
all in different stages of being repatriated back into society, from a myriad of addictions and wrong life styles. Many are former Satanists. The camp is called Saints and Sinners.
Ari and I are not together. God has kept us apart. It breaks our hearts, but we hope one day things may be different. The camp was meant for Ari also ,and it's our hope for him to join me one day soon. However, God is allowing Ari to change in His own way as it is a very difficult process and has to be the total free choice of Ari.
God does not force His will on anyone. He made me understand that when Ari changes he may have completely different feelings towards me. As much as that hurt me and still does, I am preparing myself for it. I know that to accept God's will means to deny our own, and by doing that all things will work out for our best.
Ari is an outstanding writer doing much to alert people to the ways of Satan. He contributes a great deal to the camp when he visits. He is a great teacher. We are teaching many how to be restored to leave Satan's realm and live forever with the Lord.
It isn't all fun and games,Satan sends his demons to try to thwart us in many subtle ways. Some of those demons we help save. We know the more we do God's will, the more Satan attacks Ari knows most of Satan's wily ways, and I know a few myself, so we are able to stay out of his clutches, and besides we know God's spirit is always there when needed.
It is difficult for Ari to give up the occult, and God said he will always have a bit of the devil in him while on earth, but not enough to be harmful. We all have to varying degrees, but the occult is different. In that system to have power, you must admit that Satans will, is your sole desire. though many deny this, and believe they can be friends of God, but that is Satans deception.
God explained that there were many similarities between being Spirit filled and the occult, so a person who is attracted to sorcery and such would be amazed at how much better they would be if they let God's Spirit work in them. It is just a case of not understanding, that Satan equips those who dabble in the occult with powers more quickly than God would, in an effort to keep them from God's power. Because, we are an impatient breed we don't like to wait for anything, even if it's best for us!
When Ari and I reminisce about where we lived, and his powers we realize , more power comes through our Spirit but it manifests itself differently. Yes we had some incredible things servants, and sumptuous beauty, but it was only temporary, and would all be destroyed, unlike the eternal magnificent beauty which God gives, in our next life.
One thing that changed, our love-making. It's better now than ever! We know because God allowed us one week-end together before he separated us.It was more wonderful because we had no inhibitions, for we have no guilt! We're both praying we will be together again soon, forever! We love and are loved as Creator meant us to, through His perfect love. One thing we know for sure, God does move in mysterious ways, His wonders to behold!
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|Reviewed by Sandra Mushi
|Awe stuck, Eileen! Terrific write! Powerful finale - One thing we know for sure, God does move in mysterious ways, His wonders to behold!
|Reviewed by Fr. Kurt Messick
|A fascinating story, with many important ideas and revelations (if I may use that word?). Thanks for this series.|
|Reviewed by Peter Paton
|A truly wonderful and eye opening account Eileen of God's mysterious powers
|Reviewed by Mark Rockeymoore
|"It is just a case of not understanding, that Satan equips those who dabble in the occult with powers more quickly than God would, in an effort to keep them from God's power."
that quote brought it all together for me and was the punctuation to this amazing write of yours. it is so true, one of the most open yet hidden secrets of our mysterious world. i'm glad i read this piece of yours today. by writing it in such an accessible and entertaining way, you brought clarity to a subject that many don't even attempt to broach, let alone understand. i hope you decide at some point to make a book out of this. take care and god bless.
|Reviewed by Karen Lynn Vidra, The Texas Tornado
|terrific addition to your series, eileen! well done; brava!
(((HUGS))) and much love, your friend in tx., karen lynn. :D