I remember distincly, not wanting to get married.  I  did not want to experience what my father did to my mom.  No way!, no how! I knew from an early age,  if I could not find  a husband that would be willing to stay faithful to me  then there is no point in getting married.  I also wanted to marry a man who would be responsible  and man enough to take care of his children.  My father now deceased ,was a brilliant  man but he also had a heart made out of stone.  He abandoned me , my mom  on the mere rumor that  I was not his child.  I am currently working on finishing a novel about my childhood, I will let everyone know when it is published.

As faith would have it, I came out looking just like my dad, there was no denying that he was my father.  Growing up under such dire circumstances  made it difficult for me to trust man in general, until I met my husband.  He is the most honest person I have ever met.  I do believe without a shadow of a doubt that God  cherry picked this man just for me.  Twenty fours years later and three wonderful children we are still very close.  He has literally loved me into loving myself.   He always make me feel very special and beautiful.  I was verbally abused by my mom.  She used to always tell me how...... ugly I am because I so reminded her  of my father.  Read my poerm  " Mother, Mother" it is a true account.  Through my wonderful husband, my soulmate , God has healed my heart completely,  every time I look at my handsome husband  I get really thankful.  More importantly, I have learned that  God would not have been able to bless me with such a wonderful husband If I did not forgive my mom and dad for what they did to me.  Forgiveness is the very best elexir for total deliverance  and finding true happiness in life. 

I have been asked  if you have forgiven your mom and dad, why do you write about what they did to you?  My answer to that question is plain and simple:  Other people can learn  and get inspired, because they will soon realize that  If God can change my circumstances, God can do the same for them too.  I am living proof, that no matter how bad a situation, God has the power to change our life if we are open to it.  He can't if  we do not allow  him access to our hearts .   Many times God goes out of his way to help us out by putting people in our paths, but if we become too calloused or obstinate in our thinking there is not much he can do for us.  He has given all of us freedom of will to choose, he will not violate that choice he has given each individual.

I hope and pray that all women will find their soul mate like  I did.