this article is about our own energy fields, how they do exist and how we often use our energy to read situations without realising it
Whether we understand it or not we are energy beings. We are made up of mind body and soul. The soul is eternal and long after we have discharged our human body our soul will survive. Like any living thing on earth there is a detectable energy field around it. In the 1950’s a camera was designed which could photograph this energy. It is called Kirlian photography and is often popular at mind, body and spiritual events. I believe through this field we discharge emotions, which other people can detect. For all those doubting people, how many times have you said, I don’t know what’s wrong with so and so, but…… and have then gone on to describe how they have made you feel? How many times have you walked into a room and stated you could sense an atmosphere between two people. When we look back it is rather an odd thing to say. “Could you sense the atmosphere between those two”? How many times have you made statements like that or heard some-one else say it? It is the kind of statement we take for granted and don’t really read a lot into it. If someone was to ask you to explain exactly what you meant by it, I doubt if you could put into words, what you meant, but you know what you are talking about. For the small minority of you who have read this, and thought, no, this doesn’t apply to me, let me try another angle. How many of you have been sitting in you car, when you have sensed the person in the next car is looking at you and as you have turned to look, low and behold they are staring at you. Or stood at a bar or in a queue and have had then sensation of some-one eyes boring into the back of you. Or maybe you have fancied some-one, and suddenly you know they are looking at you? Yes in one way or another it happens to us all.
Now I had always been one of those people who prided themselves on being to able to read the ‘vibes’ around people or in rooms, was it good or bad? Thick, or tense? From as long as I can remember as soon as I walked in a room I tell if my parents, had argued with each other or if they were displeased with me. I didn’t wait for any-one to speak, I just sensed it as I entered the room. I don’t believe I am unique in this manner I believe most people are able to do this.
When I look back I remember returning to work after my mother died, I could feel I lacked my own sense of containment and felt I was reaching out to people for comfort and people behaved in different ways towards me. From giving me a woman with cancer, dying the same as mother, as the first case I was expected to visit, to some-one from another Team sending me a boutique of flowers. Different people respond to this neediness in different ways. When I spoke to Pat some time afterwards to tell her how much those flowers meant to me, she dismissed my gratitude out of hand. She went on to tell me how, having lost her own mother she understood how I felt and offered her heartfelt sympathies to me. Like John and his interview, the actions of some others stayed with me a long time, the kindness of Pat and the lack of understanding with some others. Although I felt no malice or anger, at the time it was more one of bewilderment. But like many of my experiences, in later life it went on to show me how we respond to others.
When we are needy we give off and energy which tries to draw other close to us. Unfortunately we live in a world where we are rarely honest regarding how we are feeling. We are taught to keep a ‘stiff upper lip’ and not to tell others our troubles and woes and when we do tell them our worries, people assume we are expecting something back in return. In our self contained little lives we assume every-one is extremely happy and contented in their relationships, lives, work etc., except us. How much easier would life be on this planet if we were taught at a very young age that life will be full of up’s and downs and we will all go through similar things at different times, during our lives and it is okay to be open and honest and to be able to say, I have a problem and it is mine to deal with and for people to be able to hear this without feeling they need to do something or are obligated to feel they should do something, even when they don’t want to.
Following my own experience during this time, I then tried to understand what was happening when I felt people were needy of me or I felt like people were drawing off me. I was beginning to get quite good at reading energies around people and understanding them. Then a strange experience taught me to re-think my practice.