years ago i read the tibetan book of the dead. I don't remember too many details of its message, but overall concepts are things i seem to be able to grasp fairly readily. anyhow, tibetan buddhism crossed my path again recently, and i was enthralled by it anew. Particularly by the subject of the bardo, which the consciousness,it is believed, enters at death. and even more specfically , with the "red light", in which can be seen "fornicating couples". if the consciousness latches on to this light, it remains in samsara, and is reborn. but if the consciousness has very little residual attachment to the world it has left behind, godhood may be achieved, further suffering avoided. but even godhood is not stable enough a state to prevent gradual regression into samsara.
although i didn't realize at the time why, i knew that the color of humanity as a god in the mask i made must be red. later i remembered about the red light of the bardo.and then about the other end of the spectrum of visible light, which of course is violet, and beyond is ultra violet, and so on. hence the blue and violet color scheme of the madonna and child image which i have sent you. then i thought about the big picture. beyond the visible spectrum in both directions. i.e.radio waves, microwaves, infrared,on through the visible spectrum to ultra violet, x-rays, and finally gamma rays. it is said that an enlightened person can see the entire cosmos in any one aspect of it. i don't know if i'm technically "enlightened", but today i saw what follows.(sadly the visual aid which appeared in the original document cannot be pictured here)

it is a representation of the electromagnetic spectrum as an analogy of a theory(i say " a theory" because it's not entirely mine) of the evolution of all life from nothing to everything and beyond.
radio waves= life emerging from nothing as the result of a concept of them in the minds of life forms in the final stages of becoming sentient(infrared). humans for example.
microwaves=life becoming vaguely aware of its own existence through the speculation concerning said existence in those minds further along the spectrum.
infrared=life now has a rudimentary conciousness and eventually requires matter in which to explore the physical plane. both this new consciousness and the physical plane are brought into being as a result of concrete, and widely upheld theories concerning the nature of the cosmos ,again, in the minds of the further evolved.
visual spectrum(light)=divinity. life no longer requires matter as a result of the transcendence of the very concept of matter by the beings of the next stage.
ultraviolet= life now evolves beyond both flesh and divinity when, as they must ,become too cumbersome for further explorations of the cosmos.they are now free to explore such things as paralel realities freely, and without injury.
gamma rays= the final(?) stage. oneness is achieved. life has now become all. creator, created, and purpose for existence itself. the concept of self is now obsolete.
life has become everything. but what can everything become but nothing. so this omni- consciousness now creates of itself the nothing from which life re-originates and the process repeats.
this is what i call the greater samsara. achieving divinity (or godhood) is not necessarily freedom from the cycle of rebirth. if one becomes a god, yet retains to any degree, one's earthly inheritance(the mindset which views life at any stage as part of an inevitable cycle), this one will surely be one of those who, as the final(?) stage nears it's completion, will go along with conventional wisdom and return through the nothing to the beginning, and have innumerable lifetimes to struggle through, to again achieve the coveted omni- consciousness.but perhaps this larger cycle can be transcended. the crucial moments lie (lie) in the 8 periods of major transition. the 8 bardos. at any of these points, a being may break out of the remembered delusion that cycles in general are not only inevitable, but preferable, for without them existence as we know it would cease.
eventually perhaps the omni-consciousness of the final stage as a whole , as it enters/creates/becomes nothingness will have learned enough, and been mindful enough at every previous stage, of the futility of all cycles to free all life (free itself) from it's shackles.
i believe it is important to remember that the oneness of the final stage, being all, is comprised in part, by us. perhaps we can send hints and clues to the whole. perhaps this is in fact exactly what one is doing in meditaion, prayer, chant, song, developing theories such as this.
but it can be frightening at times because what would life be like without cycles? no time. no present. no past or future.no seasons. no direction. chaos. or is that the word we use to frighten ourselves into maintaining the cycle? if change is the fundamental principal by which any form of existence continues, why fear it? i think the alternative to this cyclical omniverse is
not the nothing which we dread, but the elimination of its necessity.without time,no death, with no death, no rebirth,with no rebirth, no evolution. with no evolution, no culmination of evolution, and without that, an end to ends.
Adam

p.s. sorry to dump this on you, but i couldn't think of anyone else who might understand.