G.A. WILLIAMS’ THEORY: My Synchronicity Theory Works (part )
… The key to understanding the nature of the process that leads to theproduction of synchronicities from a naturalistic perspective entails treatingthem as byproducts of human beings accommodating creative solutions to resolve seemingly intractable problems.
G. Williams 1
09/25/72My father dies…
09/25/72Synchronicity - a gap of 6 Days - Age 35
#10“Spinoza, Myself and the Will”
Immediate Situational Context:
I experience a need for both fusion and realistic boundaries simultaneously. I speculate that synchronicities may be naturalistically explained utilizing a combination of Waelder’s (1936)principle of multiple function; 2 concepts from ego psychology; and self psychology – incorporating Jung’s emphasis on teleology [purposeful goals] resulting in a totally psychodynamic interpretation]. My father dies. My marriage worsens. [It is very difficult for me to keep focused.] I am aware that I need to put my will [desires, intentions, aims] under the control of my ego, that is, I have to be able to harness and focus them at will.
At the very moment that I have the thought that I need to put my will under the control
of my ego, I randomly turn to a page in Spinoza’s Ethics(1954 )alighting on a section that describes the concept ofcontrolling one’s will. 3
I again experience myself as being on the right path. That is, I should continue to thoroughly understand this concept as it resonates to my own direct experience.
Although certain that my priority task is to continue to do all I can to further attain synthesis by harnessing and directing my powers, I am equally as certain I unable do so alone. I also am intuitively aware that although I am learning a great deal in my supervisory experience it is mainly cognitive. I sense that I have to somehow bring my negative feelings into the picture to obtain the total integration I have been longing to have. However, this means risking once again an intimate experience with another real person in an intimate relationship wherein I am required to be absolutely open and honest.
Whereas I feel as if I have no other choice but to try this path once again, I am painfully aware that my track record has been poor. In this connection, I experience myself locked in an internal civil war: one side daring, adventurous, open to discovery; the other fear ridden, insecure, and closed. The net result was that once again I felt stuck in a cleft stick quintessentially doubting my chances of significantly effecting significant change.
I was stuck between the need to find a good father substitute and a belief that such a relationship was probably not in the cards for me. Thus, although only one day passed since my last meaningful coincidence, once again – only a day later- I found myself at another fork in the road.
Situational and Psychological Contexts Pre Synchronicity # 11
(September 25tht, l972 – September 26th, l972)a one day gap09/23/72I Realize My Father is Really Dead – All Men are Mortal, Including Myself
Upon the death of my father I felt simultaneously more free and more enslaved.I was freed forever from his negative judgment but not freed from my own. I wondered if I would ever truly be free enough to take my ideas seriously. Part of my difficulty in doing so was a difficulty I was having understanding the psychodynamic understanding of the meaning of meaning. I consulted my supervisor as to his understanding about the meaning of meaning. My supervisor gives me a cogent answer to my question: what is thepsychodynamic understanding of the meaning of meaning? He explains that the problem of meaningfulness in terms of psychoanalytic metapsychology are itspreconditions. To have an experience of meaningfulness a person has first to experience the internalization of positive inner objects. A pre condition to have good internalized objects is the necessity to have had a relationship with one or more objects that have been substantially warm,and responsive to hold onto. 4
Later that day I record into my journal my thoughts about two types of people, each one with a distinctly different attitude towards the unknown. Type one views the unknown as bounded, expressed as a just so story – this is the way it is – an existential point of view; the other, type two, views the unknown as a never ending mystery – a jumping off point for generating additional questions. Type one stops action; type two explores.
I turn at random in a book called The Unobstructed Universe (1988) to page 45 that draws a distinction between the obstructed universe that is limited and the un- obstructed universe that is unlimited. 5
This synchronicity reinforces my ideas about the nature of synchronicity prone individuals of which I am familiar. In my experience such people have suffered from a deprivation of meaningful connectedness that predisposes them to tirelessly search for pathways to meaningful connections as a life theme. [I added]: This is story of my life.
My priority was clear that I had to find an atmosphere in which I would experience an openness allowing me to bring out my best. Realizing I could no longer do it alone, I knew I would have to ally myself with someone but I wasn’t ready to do so until now.
Although I knew exactly what I had to do I was gun shy, fearing that I would repeat the same negative experience that I had with practically every important male authority I had worked with in the past. I felt caught between the need to reach out once again versus keeping myself guarded.