In our Women’s Circle of four, I have become the Keeper –mostly meaning that I am the one who keeps track of everyone’s birthday. But I also keep track of when we first started meeting and the number of years we’ve done so (eight years this past month).
We met a few days ago to celebrate a birthday, sharing Chinese food, laughter, and meaningful conversation. As is our custom, we exchanged small gifts. I was delighted to receive a set of little magnetic bookmarks, one of which was decorated with a Chinese symbol for ENERGY.
I have been feeling tired lately, so welcomed this symbol into my heart. Interesting how the universe reflects back to us our state of being –then offers counterpoint and restoration. It reminded me that I am also a Gatekeeper –a guardian of my own heart and mind.
As I choose ENERGY, my whole being awakens with renewed strength and resolve.
Through the years I have observed that what I focus on I become, and that it is much more difficult to guard the gate to my inner self when I haven’t been getting the rest I need. Then those predictable gate crashers –sadness, anger, confusion, distrust– charge the walls of my inner being exactly where I am the weakest, which is usually at points where life has not come to me kindly.
So, as I choose ENERGY and experience an immediate response of inner strength, I resolve to get more sleep at night and to continue to let go of past events –past meaning years ago, an hour ago, and everything in between.