Well, a potential financial sand pit could once again invade my life! I started a temporary full time job in early May with the belief that it would become permanent if the woman on maternity decided not to return to work. Now because of business economics it is possible they may make the position part-time (which would not support me), or they may cut the position completely. Nothing is certain yet, but will be decided within the next week or so.
It would be very easy to get stressed, concerned, fearful.
No, this time I believe with all my heart that God has something truly wonderful for me. God has surprised me with some amazing things, people, and situations in my life…which I would never have dreamed of. This one may not be exactly what I want for myself, but then it will be even better than my dreams.
My dreams include relocating to a wonderful city only 2 hours from where I currently live, and where I go for day trips whenever I can. It is a place where I feel endless possibilities - creatively, socially, for exercise. It is the friendliest city I have ever experienced. I want to spend my time writing, getting inspired, writing some more. I want more time with my dog. I would still like someone special to share my life with. I continue to believe, I believe, I believe in the best is yet to come.
And so, I wonder…
- What next
- Where do I go from here…where does God want me
- I wonder - IS my writing, my stories, my poetry good enough to be published by a real publishing house, are they good enough…am I good enough to find an agent (a great agent).
- What is the reason for me to write…can my writings really help, encourage, entertain, inspire others….or is it just for my own ego
I continue to “walk with Jesus” through all my life, to “know” that when one door closes another opens and that God always has something better for us.
I remind myself that God has surprised me with amazing surprises in my life, things I never dreamt of, and I feel the excitement of whatever surprise God has next in store for me. I know that although I cannot see how my dreams can come true, God can move mountains, he can cause all things to work for the good, and he can change hearts.
So, no matter what is going on in your life…be brave, courageous, and at peace.