(This letter in two parts, the first one posted under Articles and the second one in the Poetry section, is intended to reflect, to all of you, dear friends, the whole essence of what I have expressed personally to two of you, in messages sent yesterday and today.)
To read the second part, please go to:
Part I – News
It is morning, here, a slightly grey morning following a rather stormy weekend, but with some sunny "winks" reminding us that Spring is just around the corner. You must be astonished at my ongoing silences, and so must be, indeed, other friends. I realize that my lack of response to Aberjhani's extraordinary essay - other than the special page I built in our OneLight*® website, featuring the second and concluding part of his own article posted in AD - must be sensed as the ultimate selfishness, as indeed must be my almost total absence from any interaction in AD, and I do realize that, although selfishness is not even remotely at the basis of my apathy of late, I do need to try and do something about it soon, before I appear as something that I have never been, which is... just plainly ungrateful! In fact, I can't even blame such "detachment" on any impossibly busy schedule, imposed by the promotion of our book or other personal or shared creative projects, because I haven't been doing much of that lately, either. There are other duties keeping me busy, alright - horses, farm, our family's other areas of business - and after our return from Venice, I've had to help my sister organize her daughter's - whom I love like my own daughter and who is about to make us both "grandmothers" :0) - wedding, but none of these things or all of them combined could have been incompatible, in a not too remote past, with being more active both creatively and in what concerns artistic and social interaction, because, as you will remember, my energy was... a true dynamo!
In fact, dear friends, all I am currently is just really, really tired. Maybe I did push myself too hard, during the last part of the previous year, relying on the said inexhaustible energy... which wasn't that inexhaustible after all, and I suppose that I haven't allowed it the opportunity of replenishing itself. Are we not, after all, part of Nature, and do we not need, as Nature does, time to allow our basic energetic "resources" - in our case, physical and mental - to restore themselves after we've put them through steady and stubborn depletion? The answer is as clear as it is inevitable, we all know that... and therefore, if I don't want to end up like the Earth's fast growing "hole in the ozone layer" and fast draining "oil wells", I'll really have to take some serious "ecological" measures with no further delay. :0)
Meanwhile, I must say that Aberjhani's essay touched me profoundly. When we create something, I don't think we fully realize how much our creations do take a life of their own, well beyond ourselves, to the point that they actually become imbued of their own purposes and missions, also beyond our own, and beyond our very motivations as "creators". Never in my wildest hopes or dreams could I have fathomed that our book would, one day, serve such a noble purpose in someone's life as it did in Aberjhani's, by becoming such a significant "presence", both extrinsic and intrinsically, in that context which was so deeply significant itself. I feel humbled by this awareness, and most certainly intend to express these feelings in a review to Aberjhani's article soon, as I understand that the public recognition of something that is sensed as an honour of the greatest possible magnitude, is also a way of making our gratitude more tangible, more palpable, to the ones whom we feel indebted to. In this, I sure am conscious that I'm way behind many long due and above all, heartfelt recognitions of my appreciation to so many of you - we do need to give as we receive, and in more aspects of this life than I can possibly enunciate, I certainly have received an amazing lot.
Thank you - all of you, dear friends - for all the gifts of your affection, your creativity, and your support. Be certain that all are returned in full, even if, so often - and may you forgive me for this - beyond tangible expressions of this nonetheless greatly rewarding impression… of being incredibly fortunate for counting, as wonderful friends, so many beings as wonderful as all of you!
And THESE, here, ARE truly inexhaustible:
© March 2006 by Alexandra* ~ OneLight*®