don't be another mannequin in life
edited: Saturday, February 10, 2007
By Samantha T Third
Rated "G" by the Author.
Posted: Saturday, February 10, 2007
Become a Fan
being whomever you are, being who you want to be, is hard when people have specific expectations of you. when all you want is to be accepted by the people you love the most and you are certain that you canít achieve that by being who you are
its embedded into us as we grow up that we are supposed to be acceptable. we learn to look for that acceptance. its like conformity is now supposed to be a part of all who we are. but with it we become nothing
imagine all the people in the world, all the differences and similarities. now imagine you could only see the ones that stand out, because they donít conform for the reason that they manage to love themselves for who they are. that despite the fact that they may want and need acceptance they themselves recognize that it wonít be true if they arenít accepted as they are. everyone else disappears, fades into the background.
when you think about it you arenít left with that many people standing in front of you. in fact iím not sure there would be more than a handful of people standing there, content with who they are and accepting themselves whether they get that in return or not.
its hard to imagine life working out if you believe in yourself when all this time you have been trying and it hasnít gotten the results that you wanted. the main point is that you canít just give up on who you are and change into one of those people that fade into the background. the acceptance that you get would be fake, and the way that you would feel about yourself wouldnít be satisfying. youíd be lying to yourself in the worse way possible
sometimes i look at the people around me, and there are so many of them, that reach out all the time for a specific type of acceptance. its scary how much they want to change. and i know what it feels like since i myself would be one of them for the most part.
but think about it this way. take your best friend and imagine they changed into one of the faded people (assuming that they arenít already). imagine taking all their creativity and changing it into the mass societies thoughts instead. imagine them sitting there wondering all the time if they have done enough to set about that change that they decided they need to get what they want. imagine them being just another person on the street.
imagine them blank instead of full of color
and then understand why i canít watch someone do that to themselves. why i canít do it to me. i may not believe in myself enough to stand out and not be faded Ö but i believe enough to have my outline visible.
where do you stand? with the visible? the outlines? or the faded?